sexual relationships after rape

Hi all,
It has been 12 years since my rape. I was 14 when it happened and am still struggling with PTSD, depression and a whole plethora of psychological issues . I had a rough family life as well that has attributed to many of the things I am dealing with. I have a question that I haven't seemed to be able to figure out on my own and I am a bit embarrassed by it. After I have sex, I usually feel dirty and almost a disgusted feeling comes over me. I don't know why this is and can't seem to stop this from happening. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced this and if they have found anything that has helped.
Thanks in advance-H

Yes, i experience this!!! (((Hamartia))) it is a terrible feeling. What helps in long run is therapy. Right when it happens hugging my dog or having bfriend hold me. Definitely putting clothes back on and gping for a walk , getting out of house and talking about it a later time. Emdr , eft and neurofeedback are therapies that help me. Safe hugs.

thanks. Yah my therapist wants me to try biofeedback to help some of my symptoms, it is kind of expensive though. Worth it I guess if it helps..

What helped me was neurofeedback like biofeedback but brainwave centered. It is usually expensive but at clinic where i go students do it so it's not.

It's super hard for me to write anything here because the pain for me is too deep. But I just wanted to squeek this out: I understand and send big hugs to you.