[magickal1]

I'm not doing well...obsessing a lot. I yelled at my bosses last tuesday, the anniversary of my dad's death, because they wouldn't let me go home early. They did let me go home that day, but only after they reprimanded me for yelling at them. I spent three days thinking of ways to get even with them. Not gonna do it, but the thoughts are there.
I'm on a 'better than the world' kick. Everyone is inferior to me, in my mind. I don't know why. Maybe it's to make me feel better. I feel like I don't have any control right now.
My partner suggested I ask about a change in meds. I'm on fluoxetine right now, and I'm pretty comfy with that. I'm kind of fearful of changing anything.
I'm trying to distract myself with things..reading, watching tv...whatever. I'm sorry I can't think of anything postive to write at the moment. I'll work on that.

[(JD)]

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling this way, but I fully understand it. I had to relearn this social skill of not taking out on others how I was feeling or how things needed to change (whether because of a "snafu" or not.)

Your T is on your side. Sometimes things don't go as well as they might for another person..but they have to try to help you, right? Try and not take it personally. You'll get farther, and feel better sooner if you can change that anger at T and life, into energy for changing things.

TC.