Has this happened to you:

It is starting to occur to me that I almost feel...too ok.

Since the incident 2 weeks ago: major trigger at work, then my T being unavailable, a shut- down, a week of physical illness, and finally, an (uphill) climb back to to "normalcy" (whatever that means), I have been feeling OK.

I am not:
- worrying as much about things for as long a period of time
- fearful on a constant basis
- stressed to the max out in public places (although there are certain places I absolutely still cannot go anywhere near...my heart starts racing, I hyperventilate and feel as if the world is closing in on me)

***

It's as if it's too quiet.

I realized, my friends, I am in the "comfort" zone (rolling eyes). I slammed the open door shut as soon as I got triggered and my T was unavailable. I shut down totally

****

It's not as if I WANT drama in my life, either. I don't want to hurt and to be in pain and to struggle and feel horrible. again. But I get the feeling I am going to have to open a few more doors that are going to lead to that before I am REALLY feeling better.

As we've written before, so as to not just survive, but thrive.

I have the opportunity to see a new T. I think I may need to go for it. Otherwise, I am not going to progress far beyond where I am now. And I don't think that is good.

(not if I want a life, I mean).

OK, now I am scared.

[Open Eyes]

I think you are doing really well. Try to allow yourself to open up to the idea that a new T may be great for you. Use this time of clarity to remember that you did stumble and yet look, you rebounded too and well at that.

((Hugs as always)))
Open Eyes

[beauflow]

(((ROSE Panachee)))

Stumbling along happens in life right? as Open Eyes mentions you rebounded

many many hugs to you-- I hope this new T gives you what you need for your journey