Anyone diagnosed with C-PTSD?

geez, I think everyone has some "winner/loser" in them, because it is human. It really was ment for survival and striving, but we pulled it into some stranger areas as we progressed.

The important thing that I have been working on is to "not engage" in that activity.
It isn't easy with my husband as men have even more "winner/loser" in them and are often unaware at how they seem to do it alot in even a simple interaction. Men are very poor losers as well, and they start this at a very young age too.

I have to laugh because I am really trying hard to "not" do this with my husband.
This Sunday we did one of my jobs together and he was in charge of the directions.
Well the first time he missed and told me to turn when I should have gone straight, and then we got lost and he argued to keep going and I just stopped and called the client to get help, glad I didn't listen because his whole idea would have taken us the wrong way even more. I didn't make a big deal about it, he did, he pouted and acted childish.

Then we went to another party and again he didn't pay attention to the directions and told me to turn. I repeated the directions back, saying "didn't it say to keep going straight? and he insisted on me turning. So I didn't fight it and again, he was wrong.
So I had to turn around and he got more grumpy. And finally the directions were right and he was wrong and did that pouty spoiled child anger thing again. I did my best to keep my cool. However in the back of my mind I saw several potential triggers.

How I managed 32 years of this? I don't know, I must have been able to zone it all out much better in my past. I think I am getting better at restoring that capacity. It depends on how my day is going though with the PTSD.

So, to think that we could spend time with someone that has no winner/loser issues?
Not someone who is breathing I don't think.

Open Eyes

Never been diagnosed but childhood was where it started. Don't know what the hospital and my pdoc put in his notes about it. But they did state with alarm the amount of pent up anger which is waiting in the wings.
I read that the juvinile part of our lives build the foundation for the future. Well my foundations are pretty f'd up. I don't react the way a normal person does. I try and I try but I just can't react properly.