Sad

My dad died about 9 months ago with a long battle with cancer and today my mother - inlaw died of cancer after a short battle, it was very sudden. She never did any preventative checkups. So sad and pointless in this day and age of diagnostics. My H is in TX and I am here. Alone with my girls who aren't able to process these losses. Just like with my Dad, I was here and everyone was in FL. Why do I end up by myself sad and upset. I grew up that way with my abuse and it seems to perpetuate. I needed to be here though because of work and my girls. It just seems like I am meant to be alone with my emotions. It doesn't feel good at all.

Little me, I am so sorry for your loss and that you have no-one to lean on. It seems such a shame that your mil didnt get any help, but maybe she didn't want to go through all the treatment which can be very invasive? My mother died of breast cancer too and although it was 30 years ago now I still feel sad about it. Please keep reaching out on here for support

thank you. I don't know how to say anything really so I'm not. I've been alternating between depressed and sad and ok. Yuck. H is driving home from TX by himself and I feel bad for him being alone too.

Sending hugs to you, if OK

Feeling very alone and hopeless.

be kind to yourself, it is difficult when you lose loved ones, it sends your emotions all over the place and leaves you feeling pretty vulnerable thinking why me, that is normal, you are going through a grieving process that will improve in time, till then try giving yourself permission to take time out for a hot bubble bath and a good book or some other thing you find comforting.
I am thinking of you and would love to chat, but at 3am i really must get some sleep before my carer comes in at 7!
take care x hugs x