[Still Trying]

I had a total emotional breakdown in 1994 and spent 2-3 times in psych wards. I have an excellent therapist who has stood by me for all these years. She has taught me much about my PTSD and various coping strategies.
I also get very depressed and anxious. I am low income and live in a stressful environment of crime, drugs, fights, etc. At times I am so stressed living here that I get triggered about past issues and become dysfunctional, confused, scared, and just want to hide in my apt in my bed. This accomplishes nothing, but I am so triggered I am literally unable to pull myself out of hole of terror that I am in. I thought I had done so well and come a long way, but I'm a mess again and I'm disappointed in myself and am in tears most of the time. It is amazing that triggers can come out of the blue when you are least expecting them, and they knock you to the floor. This trigger is especially hard on me and I just don't have much fight left in me.

[Travelinglady]

I'm sure it's tough to have to keep battling. I think, though, you can take comfort when the episodes occur less frequently. I'm sure anybody would feel some stress in the environment you're in.

I suggest you stay in treatment with your therapist, keep her informed of triggers and episodes, and try to stay positive. I know that's easier said than done, but you are not alone. As far as when it will stop, I don't think anyone could put a date or time on that.

[optimize990h]

Hello Still Trying! Welcome to PsychCentral! There are others here who have similar experiences and feelings as you here at PC. Just keep posting at PC. Take care.

[Still Trying]

Thanks for the encouragement and understanding. It means more to me than you know.