[Aiuto]

My lifeline and now ex boyfriend told me in an argument that "I am my worst enemy"! After the last 10 years of being together this is what I got. I decided I needed to end the relationship because I was feeling more emotional abuse when I had to associate with this guy. He was a lifeline financially for me and my kids, but it was doing more hurt to me.

I thought out of EVERYBODY that he would not say such insensitive things to me, and that he understood what was going on with me, and he stayed my friend while EVERYONE left me. I had to decide to let this relationship/friendship go because the words were "triggering".

I am in a PTSD pit and just want to survive!

[gayleggg]

You were right to leave. No one deserves to be emotionally abused. I know it is hard to leave a relationship, especially one that lasted that long. I had to leave a marriage of 24 years due to emotional and some phsyical abuse. Be sure and check out our PTSD forum. Hang in there, you will be okay.

[Aiuto]

Thanks for the response. I also have a bad anniversary of my kid's father passed away 10 years ago before my eye's!! Flashback's & nightmares have been strongest.

The guy that is emotionally abusing me has been with me 9 years and knows that this anniversary is this weekend! And this is how I get treated. I warned him this week that I am on my worst behavior because of bad nightmares, flashbacks, lack of sleep etc.

I did not want to end this only friendship of mine on a bad note but I have no choice we had a fall out and I am just a "thin skinned sensitive person" that he does not want to deal with anymore.

I am fine with this because of the emotional abuse that has been happening to me.....I just wish it could of been on better terms, but hey I have to let go of things I do not have control over. I might go take that trip to hospital this weekend because my depression is horrible with the PTSD

[Open Eyes]

It sounds like you have been having a really hard time with finding a way to feel "safe" while you are trying to understand and work through the PTSD. If you are really struggling then I do recommend going to the hospital for help/rest.

((Hugs))
OE

[Aiuto]

I found out that my pain was making my anxiety Out of control since I stopped the medicine for chronic pain. The T had also put me in a major PTSD funk by pressuring me to go to hospital just for "proof reasons". I am feeling better because everyday is a day away from medication that took my clarity while I got off it.

My family members that are in the medical field said I am not bad enough that they would keep me and it is not a good idea so I need to STOP thinking about the negative stuff the T told me a week ago and be done with that T! And that's my plan and keep focus on my schooling.

[JadeAmethyst]

Wishing you well, and health and healing during this time.
sincerely,
Jade

[Aiuto]

The ex is a major trigger and does not get it and will not leave me ALONE threw text. I find it soooooo much more peaceful since I got rid of this trigger! Now if I could get him COMPLETELY out of my phone! I blocked him. He always starts with his BS in morning that would result in bad mood for awhile or more often in the evening so then I get very little sleep. I am over this person for my own sanity!!

[Teacake]

This isn't how ten year relationships end. Do you think you might be confusing one loss with another? Your husband died young. Young men generally die suddenly. You are suddenly killing your relationship. See the connection?

We are hard to live with. We ARE our worst enemies. It's not abusive to say that to us. Maybe your man is abusive. I don't know. Saying that one thing is not abuse.

Its winter for the unscathed too. Everyone is irritable. Give them a break.