A word, a simple word
and now there is chaos
in each beat of my heart
Feelings that are destroying
what I’m trying to build
The pass has surfaced
From where?
I don’t even know
I can’t remember
But it’s here
inside of me
“You are disgusting”
That’s what it is saying

[(JD)]

((((time0))) Don't listen to it. Counter it. Lies... that's what they are.

[biplol]

((**((**((**TimeO**))**))**)) Don't pay attention to it.
~hugs to you hon~ and PM me if you need anything.

[woundedhearts]

You are not disgusting. You are a wonderful person.

I can't shut it out. I don't know how.

Even when I went to work today I was a bit more shy then usual and I didn't wanted anyone to look in my eyes in case they could see how disgusting I am. I didn't wanted them to see in me someone who would make them trow up in disgust. I have to go back to work tomorrow but I wish I could just hide. Hide from the world.

Thank you! You are all much to kind to me.

((( time0 )))

You were lied to. Try hard not to believe them, now and in the past.

They lied. The voices are liars.

And I am telling you the truth. I have no reason not to.

[(JD)]

I agree with Petunia... and flowers don't lie!

It's tough to change the tapes in your mind... with so many repeats going on, it takes just as many to change it. Keep stopping those thoughts, and think what we are saying here... You are not disgusting. ((hugs))

[biplol]

((((TimeO))))) Ohh HOn, I wish i could take all that pain away from you.
hang in there~

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((((((Time0))))))))))))))))) You are so not disgusting. I wish you could see this. It is so hard to not hear what was told to us so many times. I hope one day you will see yourself as I do. A kind, caring beautiful person. Take care and try to be kind to yourself.

So sorry those words have come back to you.

Sometimes our inner-self(past memory recordings) can be much more harsh on us than anyone else. If you can, please hear all that have posted to you, they know many kind and loving words for you.

Thinking of you Time0.

mandy

[Fuzzybear]

That word was and is wrong...... I'm so sorry for your pain. You're so not disgusting. Please take care ((((((((((((( Time0 )))))))))))))

Thank you all very much!

I am trying very hard but I am so tired and so sad.

I'm trying.

Then that's all you can do. Take your time and stay here with us. We'll try to hold you up.

You are the most ugly thing I have ever seen, said the mirror. Please turn off the light. You are making me sick with your presence.

I hope someday you will hear the many voices here that say the opposite. But I understand that you can't.

[(JD)]

Quit looking into the mirror I'm sorry you have these lies running through your mind. Do your best to give help and care to others, and it will help you know that you are not those negative things! ((((time0)))

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((( Time0 )))))))))))))))

" I'm warning you not to say anything or things will get worst for you. Stay quiet and stay in your corner."

At these times I have a hard time not to isolate completally. I'm also having a hard time communicating.

I appreciate your caring words. I appreciate all of you for not forgetting me. I appreciate that I don't disgust you. I appreciate that you do not quit on me. I appreciate that you don't let me go. I appreciate that you hold on to me because right now I can't hold on to you. Thank you!

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((((Time0))))))))))))))))))))) I'll hang on to you with all my might. Please try and take care of yourself. I know those old words you were told can be so haunting.

[hillbunnyb]

)))))))))) ) TimeO ((((((((((( whew, "disgusting" is so far from you I wish I could erase it from your tape. put a sign on the mirror that says the truth: "I am warm, kind, generous, loving and loved." Give the negative self talk a big ol' Bronx Cheer whenever it pops up to bring you down!!!!

Thank you for your caring!