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Old Oct 08, 2014, 05:29 PM
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Teacake, you did not come home to die, you need to finally face all this and heal now. You will not intellectualize this in such a short time, not in one day or three weeks.

So your mother is "this is mine, this is mine" and you are recognizing this pattern in her has always been there, that pattern is coming from her own "boundary issues" where she developed this way of "self protecting".

Teacake, every single person that is challenged in this forum, everyone I have met in one way or another has experienced this kind of "maladaptive damaged parent".

These people simply don't have the capacity to understand "you", the person who has to understand "you" and heal is "you".

If your mother has said that you still have untreated PTSD, then agree with her and tell her you need funds so you can pay for a qualified therapist to work with you instead of the ones the system has offered that have been no help. There "are" good therapists out there Teacake, if you lived near me and saw my therapist you would see that. You are in a new state and you have to convince your mother to fund you so you can get the help you need.

The only reason a person would suicide with glee is only because the person wants to rid themselves of the "stress". Well, that doesn't really do anything, when you can learn andpp heal with help, which you "can". Do you want your son to live out his life wondering if he will end up suiciding like his mother? Because, that is what happens, and that is not fair to your child who is only 27 and in many ways still learning and really doesn't even have the capacity to understand "you". When you speak of the glee of suicide, you better stop and think about how selfish that act would really be. That is just not fair to your son, are you going to be like your mother that way, because that is what you would be doing to your son. Two wrongs do not make a right.

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Its OK, OE. Nothing is happening now. All parents are messed up. We are a disturbed species. I had a good therapist. They all have limits. Most are crap though. Because we are all wHuman and to he Human is to stand in horror at what we are hoping to ride It out and glimpse our occassional goodness...or to live in fantasy.

Whatever I do wont be the worst thing to happen in the world that hour.

If my family cant read a book or a wiki article on ptsd, even the simple kind, im not going to worry overnuch that they will obsess over any action of mine.

Besides, I'm high maintenance with costly upkeep.
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Old Oct 08, 2014, 06:40 PM
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Or it means that person is being abusive and instead of wasting time trying to view them like an abused dog that actually deserves pity and compassion, its best to see them as an abusivie toxic person and avoid further contact with them and be careful NOT to rationalize their abusive behaviors towards you as them 'not knowing any better' and 'just being frusterated'. My advice kinda contrary to yours I guess would be the OP should work on what they need to do to take care of them-self, and find help and support to dismiss their moms words as verbal abuse and have support coping with having to go through that. Certainly not consider 'well what did I do to create the monster my mom is'.

Sounds like the OP's mom is emotionally abusive, she'd be the one responsible for the abused dog cowering in the corner I just don't think there is a good excuse for encouraging people to kill them-self or otherwise harm/neglect them-self or other verbal abuse/manipulation even if the individual doing it might have had a bad experience or multiple.
Its so much more complicated. Before I got back to the suicidal place i got irritable like PTSD dad. And I got I to poison ivy on my face and hands. Mom has always been super aenzitive to small facial expressions. Mine were blurred by swelling. A thousand little things go into the cruelty that passed between us, and It goes both ways. Mom is as emotionally sensitive as a sunburned all over person is sensitive to touch. Ive got similar and different issues of my own. Its almost never as simple as a toxic abuser attacking an innocent victim.

I didn't make the connection at the time but my handle is the name of a man in a novel, a good, loving man, who contracts rabies and has to be put down by his lover. Any of us could.
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Old Oct 08, 2014, 07:08 PM
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Was she able to get the hot water fixed while there?
She bought a hot water heater.

We've been working hard on the old house. She's been spending money on it too. It's sad in a way. My great grandfather built the house and my grandfather built the addition. There are hand hewn beams in the basement. It's fragile. It's been abandoned.
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Old Oct 08, 2014, 07:15 PM
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She bought a hot water heater.

We've been working hard on the old house. She's been spending money on it too. It's sad in a way. My great grandfather built the house and my grandfather built the addition. There are hand hewn beams in the basement. It's fragile. It's been abandoned.
That is sad. Hopefully you can bring some life back into it and make the house your home.

and Whoop Whoop for the hot water. Sure will make those showers more enjoyable.
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Old Oct 12, 2014, 05:06 PM
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Its so much more complicated. Before I got back to the suicidal place i got irritable like PTSD dad. And I got I to poison ivy on my face and hands. Mom has always been super aenzitive to small facial expressions. Mine were blurred by swelling. A thousand little things go into the cruelty that passed between us, and It goes both ways. Mom is as emotionally sensitive as a sunburned all over person is sensitive to touch. Ive got similar and different issues of my own. Its almost never as simple as a toxic abuser attacking an innocent victim.

I didn't make the connection at the time but my handle is the name of a man in a novel, a good, loving man, who contracts rabies and has to be put down by his lover. Any of us could.
I guess i just wouldn't hang around someone who told me to off myself and other things like that regularly...regardless of what issues they might have.
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Old Oct 13, 2014, 06:52 PM
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I admit I am a bitter spiteful person but the last time my mom told me that my response was "Nope I want to live long enough to put you in the most abusive worst hellhole of a nursing home I can find. I hope they make your final years as happy as you made my childhood." Then I smiled sweetly said I love you and walked out. Yes I know I'm a bad person but god it felt good to say it.
Ok, I just have to say this...

You are awesome.

That is all. Carry on, carry on.
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Old Oct 13, 2014, 08:03 PM
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Ditto to what ChipperMonkey said. Karma is a *****.
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Old Oct 14, 2014, 02:25 PM
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For many the option of suicide is always with them, especially those with PTSD imo. But it isn't a toy nor an option to be played with (and I think you know what I mean by that).

It's an option, that's all. And by keeping that option you tell yourself that you are going to keep trying and things might become worse but you never have to endure horrible ongoing anything because you have that option.

Now put that option back on the shelf and get on to life.

You have been reminded of things you try to forget...but they remain inside. With mothers it's very difficult because you hold hope that one day she will change and love you like you deserve to be loved...and cutting complete ties with a hateful mom means you will never get that love. But, in reality, you know you will never get that love--it isn't because you don't deserve love, it's because something happened in that person's life that makes them unable to love. It's them, not you.

Who knows what made your mom say that? I wasn't there so I sure don't. It could be she's tired of hearing of it, or she wants to end her own miserable life...doesn't matter. If you are around her again and she says something hateful, stop, look at her, and ask, "What made you say that??"

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