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Whatever I do wont be the worst thing to happen in the world that hour. If my family cant read a book or a wiki article on ptsd, even the simple kind, im not going to worry overnuch that they will obsess over any action of mine. Besides, I'm high maintenance with costly upkeep. |
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I didn't make the connection at the time but my handle is the name of a man in a novel, a good, loving man, who contracts rabies and has to be put down by his lover. Any of us could. |
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She bought a hot water heater.
We've been working hard on the old house. She's been spending money on it too. It's sad in a way. My great grandfather built the house and my grandfather built the addition. There are hand hewn beams in the basement. It's fragile. It's been abandoned. |
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and Whoop Whoop for the hot water. Sure will make those showers more enjoyable. ![]()
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I pray that I am wrong, while fighting to prove I'm right. Me~ Myself~ and I . |
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You are awesome. That is all. Carry on, carry on. |
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Ditto to what ChipperMonkey said. Karma is a *****.
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For many the option of suicide is always with them, especially those with PTSD imo. But it isn't a toy nor an option to be played with (and I think you know what I mean by that).
It's an option, that's all. And by keeping that option you tell yourself that you are going to keep trying and things might become worse but you never have to endure horrible ongoing anything because you have that option. Now put that option back on the shelf and get on to life. You have been reminded of things you try to forget...but they remain inside. With mothers it's very difficult because you hold hope that one day she will change and love you like you deserve to be loved...and cutting complete ties with a hateful mom means you will never get that love. But, in reality, you know you will never get that love--it isn't because you don't deserve love, it's because something happened in that person's life that makes them unable to love. It's them, not you. Who knows what made your mom say that? I wasn't there so I sure don't. It could be she's tired of hearing of it, or she wants to end her own miserable life...doesn't matter. If you are around her again and she says something hateful, stop, look at her, and ask, "What made you say that??" ![]()
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