I'm disintegrating. I can feel myself falling apart. My whole leg has already fallen apart and there's a hole in my chest that's getting bigger and bigger. How can I stop this? My mom won't give me superglue, although I'm not even sure that would work. I'm becoming dust and there's pieces of me all over the floor. Help?

My parents say I'm still there so it's not important enough to go to the doctor. And I can't go to the doctor by myself on Sunday because on Sunday the doctor is 15 miles away.

Yesterday my mother cleaned some chunks of the floor. And she says my leg has been missing for years.

Breadfish, you are going to be okay. I remember a while back that you were in patient. If you are home now, please arrange to see someone about this as soon as possible.

Originally Posted by licketysplit

Breadfish, you are going to be okay. I remember a while back that you were in patient. If you are home now, please arrange to see someone about this as soon as possible.

I was on weekend leave when I posted the other posts (and opened the thread) and am now back inpatient. I'm seeing my pdoc this afternoon.

I don't drink anymore because when I swallow liquids, they pour out of my chest. Yesterday I showered and when I pointed the shower head at my chest, I could feel the water going through me and running down my back.

Thank you for posting this update, Breadfish. I'm glad you're back IP and seeing your pdoc today.

I got taken off two meds and put on another called Zyprexa.
And he threatened with an IV and everything so we compromised: I now have to eat a lot of yoghurt.

Also I have an emergency appointment at the university hospital this friday.

I've heard good things about Zyprexa.

I love yogurt. It's a comfort food for me. Sort of like pudding. Glad you found a compromise.

Good luck with your appt on Friday.

[pegasus]

Originally Posted by Breadfish

I'm disintegrating. I can feel myself falling apart. My whole leg has already fallen apart and there's a hole in my chest that's getting bigger and bigger. How can I stop this? My mom won't give me superglue, although I'm not even sure that would work. I'm becoming dust and there's pieces of me all over the floor. Help?

Hello Breadfish,

I thought this post was in my forum so I thought I would answer it. It sounds like you are having a psychotic episode. Psychosis can feel very real and can be extremely symbolic. You appear to be disintegrating which is akin to 'falling apart.' It truly is a dreadful feeling, though with psychosis usually the person is unable to make sense of it or put it into words so you have done well to reach out to us here. I hope your doctors can get the medication adjusted to the correct levels so that you no longer suffer with these awful feelings and delusions. Keep us informed.

Well it sucks!