hi everyone i.just recently diagnosed w ptsd

Hi everyone ,
My name is spring2014 . I was just recently diagnosed w ptsd .I had a psychological evaluation done two weeks,ago and I.got my test results back from.my psychological evaluation and my therapist told me yesterday that I have ptsd . I'm trying fight it everyday now knowing that I.have it cuz of my losses from.the past and it has,really hit me so.hard now I.can't deal w anything anymore . I.feel like I'm stuck.in the past and can't move forward in my life . It feels like the ptsd is running my life. I.can't get a job in my field of studies and idk what to do cuz of the memories of my parents are around me .

He spring2014, welcome to the PTSD forum. Sorry you are struggling so much right now, and yes, it is very confusing when ptsd is present. All you can do is take the time now to slowly sort through this challenge, and it's quite a challenge that others do not understand so it's important you find ways to be exposed to others that "do" understand and can be supportive to you while you work your way through it.

What your brain will be doing for a while is something it is not used to doing, it is very distracting and tiring because your executive part that has only been used to just checking in now and then, will be much busier reviewing your subconscious mind and finally trying to process things that have been causing you a lot of stress in your life.

It "is" hard to have a job and have a lot going on because of how the brain gets so distracted in trying to understand and work through whatever is involved with a person's history or trauma that has been causing so much stress.

First of all, it is important that you understand this is not your fault and that it will take time for you to slowly "heal" through this challenge. So you need to be patient with yourself and allow yourself to do lots of self soothing and self care and not feel guilty that you need to do that either.

Most people have a hard time sleeping while they are in the first stages of ptsd and healing. So, my advice from my own experience and understanding, is that it is best to find a medication that can help you sleep. The brain will not be getting a restorative sleep as it is used to where it processes while one sleeps. However, you are at the point where your brain doesn't know how to process right now, not until you have more information there so it "can" finally process, which you will slowly get in "therapy/trauma recovery work". While you won't be processing for a while, your body will get exhausted and it is important that your body gets rest.

It is best to focus on the trauma work and do your best to keep stress at a minimum for a while. The body/mind actually does know this which is why you keep getting the symptoms that encourage you to "avoid" and "isolate". Learning how to help yourself when you experience triggers and have the "fight/flight" responses is important so you can keep on track with your self care/self soothing.

One important thing to understand about ptsd is that what comes forward by the way of flashbacks that are visual/emotional/stressful/negative all come in waves. So, whatever comes forward comes in a wave, crests, then eases off. This is not to scare or hurt you, all it means is "I am hurt here and I need to understand it better so I can resolve it".
Each person will be different depending on what history they have that lead up to them finally struggling with PTSD. It is always important that no matter what comes forward, it is not happening "now", even though it really feels like it is. The more you acknowledge these episodes, the more you will slowly get closer to being able to process them "finally" to where they no longer feel like they are happening "now". It is important that you keep reminding yourself "not now, in the past, over, not now", that really helps to reduce the severity of how these memories present to you.

You are welcome to come here and vent or use this forum in your effort to verbalize these challenges as they come forward. Most of the members experience this too and will do our best to "listen and offer you support".

It's time to finally "heal".

((Caring Supportive Hugs))
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