[floridaman38]

I went to see a new T today and I was discussing my conditions and situations and when we were finished he pulled down a book from his shelf and opened it to the pages for PTSD. He went through the symptoms of the condition and every one of them except a couple pertained to me, from the feelings to the outbursts. Strangely enough, I was relieved by the news instead of thinking oh great this is bad. I have been told in times past that I was only ADD/ADHD and not bipolar, PTSD, Manic or depressed, just ADD/ADHD. The idea was that I was just wanting attention from where ever I could get it. This bothered me because it seemed stupid to me to only get attention by feeling this way. I now believe that my PTSD has caused many of the hurts in my life and I now feel like I don't have to feel weird for my actions, I need to take responsibility for my actions but I can say that they are assisted by my PTSD and not just by me wanting attention. The doctors of the 1980's and early 1990's were wrong. I feel better knowing this and hope that I can recover from this past of guilt. This is more of a rant than it is a question or wonder. Thanks for reading any comments are welcomed. Thanks again.

[Squaw]

Things are looking up more all the time..I believe the doctors of the 80's and 90's did the best they could with what they knew, only they didn't have enough research to read up on to complete the task at hand. I'm glad that you now have a reason for some understanding of your past confusion. It really helps to be informed of what you're dealing with, so that you can..sort of completes the circle if you will..Thanks for sharing floridaman