[Solari]

My son's were shot in December. My 21 yr old once, my 23 yr old 5 times, and nearly died. Since then I have sunk into a deep depression, rarely leave my bed, and am afraid of leaving the house or making any moves forward in life. When I think about doing anything my hands start to shake, my chest feels tight, and my stomach does crazy things. In my head I hear, I want to go home, over and over again, when I have to leave the house for food. I don't re-live the shooting, I wasn't there, but I do still see my son laying in a coma on a respirator in my head sometimes, and when the police drive by my house I panic thinking they are coming here to tell me one of my son's is dead, and then I cry for hours. They are both heroin addicts, so I know this is my reality. I feel emotionally dead, so don't understand having these reactions or feelings. Is this PTSD? Depression? Both? Any advice on how to cope?

[Nike007]

Originally Posted by Solari

My son's were shot in December. My 21 yr old once, my 23 yr old 5 times, and nearly died. Since then I have sunk into a deep depression, rarely leave my bed, and am afraid of leaving the house or making any moves forward in life. When I think about doing anything my hands start to shake, my chest feels tight, and my stomach does crazy things. In my head I hear, I want to go home, over and over again, when I have to leave the house for food. I don't re-live the shooting, I wasn't there, but I do still see my son laying in a coma on a respirator in my head sometimes, and when the police drive by my house I panic thinking they are coming here to tell me one of my son's is dead, and then I cry for hours. They are both heroin addicts, so I know this is my reality. I feel emotionally dead, so don't understand having these reactions or feelings. Is this PTSD? Depression? Both? Any advice on how to cope?

Though I'm not diagnosed with PTSD, something like that would be able to cause PTSD in someone. I suggest you find a therapist or pdoc or mental health specialist immediately to get help. Many people who have PTSD have depression too. I'm sorry this happened to your children. Hope you find the help you need.

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That is so tragic. I am so sorry. I can't imagine.

[WibblyWobbly]

It sounds like PTSD. You were traumatized. Depression and anxiety are symptoms of PTSD. I think you would benefit from seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist. I'm so sorry this happened to you, and I hope your sons decide to get help.