[darkpurplesecrets]

I have tried to write and write but fear keeps stopping me. I feel so lost and so scared. I can't and don't want to do today. Please make the flashbacks, shards, and pieces stop. I can't do this today........................................

[Mrs. Mania]

Take a deep breath. Drop the "t" out of your mantra. You CAN do this day!!!! Say it, even if you don't believe it. Force yourself to say it. Your brain will hear it and force you to believe it. Then this day will be over and you can be proud that you did it! I believe in you!

[DesigningWoman]

Agreed.
You can do this day. Even though you may feel you can't, in reality, you can and you will. If you don't believe in your ability, listen to positive voices here and in your life that are lifting you up and on throughout your day.
Less then twelve hours, I was cursing my thoughts that wouldn't stop or let go. I felt like I couldn't even get ready for bed. I realized arguing w myself was making everything more difficult. I struggled through simple grounding thoughts. As I brushed my teeth. And on. It was a battle, but I completed my day and woke up to a new one.
When I say that you can do this, I am not necessarily saying it will be easy. But you can do it. You can get through the flashback, brush your teeth, keep breathing, put one foot in front of the other, call a therapist or trusted friend or family for help, post updates here. In spite of the pain, fear, and trauma, You can do all these things and so much more.

[Open Eyes]

((dps)), I am sorry to see you are having a bad day today. I have these kind of days myself and I can't write about them either. Sometimes I just sit and read other's challenges, or sit and read my homepage full of different articles, sometimes I post an article in the Current Events forum, just to get myself thinking in some kind of direction. Some days, I am just too full of the "pieces" that I can't do anything. I have had to learn to be very patient with myself when I have these kind of days, sometimes I just veg and try to find a movie to watch, other times I sleep it off if I can and some of these days I don't really sleep but just lay there trying to relax instead of feed into it.

If you can't put it into words, try not to push it and don't feel bad for it. I think that there are times where a lot of pieces come forward and the brain doesn't quite know what to do and when that happens to me I give it a break any way I can.

[bluekoi]

(((darkpurplesecrets)))

I'm sorry you are struggling.

[sabby]

(((((((((( dps ))))))))))))

I'm sorry I didn't see this sooner and respond.

I hope that soon you will find you made it through this rough patch and you are better for having made it through. I can't begin to imagine the memories and how they are affecting you today, as an adult as compared to then as a child. I have the utmost respect for the struggles you endure and I know, you WILL make it through. I'll be with you every step of the way my friend.

[Fuzzybear]