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Jul 14, 2016, 11:41 AM
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Religion triggers me - my dad was very religious - he did bad things - I didn't realise the connection till now - someone said you would be happy if you gave yourself to god - I said I don't think that would make me happy or not - I don't believe in A god - I believe in energy and if you want to call that God then ok
so that's the connection - he was always spouting religion - and doing bad things - so I got triggered - explosive anger - then sadness then tears - didn't let her see the tears - said things I shouldn't have told her I work with back stabbing *****es - which is true - but shouldn't have said it - but she kept pushing as why I wasn't happy and that triggered me and I said stuff I shouldn't have my work already sent me to see a psych because I put up a fuss when we get aggressive patients coming in with no precautions put in place - I know I am hyper vigilent - is that a bad thing in this case? I need to calm down - keep my big fat mouth shut - keep my mask in place - I need my job - since I got PTSD I screwed everything up - finances - life - home - friendships ... cant think of one left.... Sometimes when this happens I wonder what the point of continuing is - I don't have my cat anymore - he died...no-one depends on me and im tired of fighting - tired of putting one foot in front of the other tired of thinking I have things under control when really they are spinning out of control - just really really tired all I do is sleep and work...nothing else... I may be alive but I am not living ...
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts  its how many times you get back up!   (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture  )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Jul 14, 2016, 12:44 PM
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 I wish I had more to offer except for that I'm very tired of .... Too... But somehow we both are still here. I'd miss you so much if you weren't here   Love, Fuzzy    (Little sis who feels like ****..) (Ps the step ... "Mother" was supposedly religious and played lady bountiful in the "village" - but in private she spun between threatening to put her head in the "gas oven" and telling me her "cup overflowed" And other unspeakable stuff.. Much more I could say but this isn't about me. I love you sis Btw I so often feel I "should" keep my mouth shut....... (The allergies etc are much worse than I want to describe, I am taking antihistamines )
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Jul 15, 2016, 04:15 PM
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Please don't "keep your mouth shut" especially here
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Jul 19, 2016, 07:52 AM
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you either little sis
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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