[finestitcher]

Hi, I am new to this forum. I am 58 yrs old, and I have survived much in my life time.

I survived the ugliness of my childhood at the hands of my mental unstable father to the point that my sisters and I don't have any memories of holidays, birthdays, etc. or anything else about your childhood...except the fear that we still hold on too...sadly.

I survived the neglect of my husband of 17 yrs...now deceased.

I survived the abusive behavior of my son, who was neglected by his father. Whether this lead to his abusive behavior, I don't know. I do know though that he still scares me today when I am around him...he is 33 yrs old now. He has begun to process his behavior, which I am greatful for and has begun to control his angry outbursts, but this has not helped me feel safe. My fear of him many years ago during his teenage years was so great that I would simply freeze in my tracks or seat, waiting, just waiting...

I have terrible issues with male beings. It is very hard for me to be around males. They make me feel insecure and vulnerable. Waiting, just waiting...I have been single for 22 years now.

I have survived much more, but not relevant to the PTSD topic.

[MyBestKids2]

Hi BigCasper

I'm Dee. You certainly are a survivor. I am sorry you have had to endure such abuse. Welcome to our great community with lots of kind people.

Take gentle care,
Dee

[finestitcher]

Thanks for the welcome, Dee.

Welcome to PC BigCasper,

You will find lots of supportive, caring people here who, unfortunately, have experienced similar issues.

I'm sorry you have been through so much. Maybe this will be a turning point with your son seeking help.

The waiting, waiting, waiting is a very familiar and unsettling feeling. I understand.

I hope you will come to find peace soon.

Petunia

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((((((BigCasper))))))))))))))
Gosh, I relate to so much of what you are saying. I'm so sorry you have dealt with so much. I hope you find peace and the safety that you long for. We are hear to listen to you any time. Welcome to PC.

[Jennifer1084]

Hey BIgcasper, it is good that you came to PC. I hope you will find it helpful as you continue your life's venture. This is a very supportive place to come and there are people here who understand. I wish you the best and I hope you will find comfort and support here at PC, it really is a good place.

Jennifer

[CedarS]

Welcome!

[Soidhonia]

Hello and welcome to Psych Central BigCasper. I hope you can find support that you are seeking at Psych Central. Take care. soidhonia

((((BigCasper))))

Welcome to PC. I am glad you are here. I am so sorry to hear what you have had to endure. I am glad you posted and shared. I can relate and so can many others here. I hope you will find it a safe and supportive place. People genuinely care and understand. We are hear to listen and uphold each other in times of need. You are not alone and are heard. I hope you find it safe and will reach out as much as you need to. I am glad you joined and I look forward to getting to know you more. Thank you for posting. Sending you good thoughts and prayers.

purplesecrets

[finestitcher]

Thank you for all the warm welcomes! They are very much appreciated.

Carolyn