[ptsdlmw]

Greetings,
I posted an introduction in the main intro section. There's a trigger alert on my post there.

I am here to give and receive support and hopefully learn to how deal with this new "monster" (PTSD) in my life. It's a challenge as my two main triggers are caused by my husband.

Possible trigger:

his suicide attempt and his use of pornography and prostitutes

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Although I realize (rationally) that I am physically safe, I don't "feel safe". My guts are in knots. The holidays were really rough. I'm approaching the 1-year anniversary of his disclosure and his near-fatal attempt (which I was able to stop).

I worry about him, b/c he seems so different intellectually. He is an MD (not currently practicing b/c of his issue - major depression). Previously he was always so stable, smart, and respectable (I thought). This feels like whiplash. (Who was I married to for 23 years?) I worry about him, too, b/c he had very prolonged exposure to carbon monoxide and I've read some research that it can affect the brain long-term.

Of course I need to put energy into myself and my healing. I am going to try to get motivated to get into a yoga class. I stopped practicing yoga due to some lumbar spine issues and I am a bit better and want to start again. I have had GAD for a long time, so this complicates things (along with perimenopause - OY VEY!)

I just wanted to pop in here and introduce myself to others who "get" PTSD.

[PumpkinPieHead]

Hi Ptsdlmw!

Welcome to the group! We're glad to have you.

[WhiskeyGirl]

I'm so sorry you are going through all this. Several years ago I learned my husband wasn't the man I thought he was. We have been through a lot and it is really hard work, but our relationship and he and I are all improving over time. ((hugs))

[ptsdlmw]

Originally Posted by WhiskeyGirl

I'm so sorry you are going through all this. Several years ago I learned my husband wasn't the man I thought he was. We have been through a lot and it is really hard work, but our relationship and he and I are all improving over time. ((hugs))

Thanks! I hope this can be a wake-up call for both of us and that our relationship can be better going forward. We are both very strong people and committed. It's hard work, as you know.

[ADeepSandbox]

I'm sorry you are struggling with this

When I was a teenager, I dealt with my

Possible trigger:

father being suicidal and him giving me a suicide note

and I am still hurt from that. It is a terrible thing to go through with someone you love. He is lucky to have you. Take care of yourself. <3