[Bipnik]

I was sexually abused as a child and I know it sounds stupid but I 'forgot' about it for years then it suddenly came back to me. It has effected my relationship with my partner as well as my reactions to men, not being able to trust them and fearing that they will do the same. It effected how I brought my children up when they were little not wanting them to sleep over in case they were abused. I keep having flashbacks of when it happened and I feel I have been abused again.

I also experienced flashbacks and panic attacks after I was beaten up and also of when I was followed home and sexually assaulted.

I don't know whether to mention these to my pdoc or not coz I also have Bipolar and Borderline personality disorder so much of my time is taken up with these issues. Also I think I should be over these issues by now!

I am 53 yrs old, was sexually abused from the age of 8-11. I thought I'd 'got over those issues' too, having put it out of my mind for decades. I'd gone on successfully (I thought) with my life never feeling the need to think about it. However, I was bullied at work 4 years ago & was majorly triggered. This was the time that it 'came back to haunt me' I was referred for counselling & started on my journey. I have PTSD, have recently had to leave my job of 10 years due to being triggered along with severe bouts of anxiety to the extent that I can no longer function. I've had EMDR & the flashbacks have gone & I no longer SH. However, I'm still left with trauma that needs to be addressed & am awaiting more EMDR.

What I now realise is that I was never 'over it' all I did was block it out. I was an angry person all my life with little to no compassion for others. I went from one bad relationship to another to another, never really connecting with anyone.

My personal advice would be to tell your pdoc, because the trauma you have is still raw & unprocessed & will stay that way until you do some work on it. It has come back to 'bite you on the bum' & you need to share this. It's a long hard & painful journey which I'm still working on, but it has changed my life & im at last becoming the person I truly am.

Good luck.

[Bipnik]

Thx JoBo for sharing your experiences. I am so sorry you have had to suffer so much!! I too SH although I am better than I used to be. I'm glad to hear that your therapy is helping you! What does EMDR stand for? I will take your advice and mention it to my pdoc. Thank you again. Hugs

[Bipnik]

Thank you so much JoBo for sharing your experiences! I'm so sorry you have had to suffer so much!! I too SH. What does EMDR stand for? I'm so glad that your therapies are helping you. I will take your advice and mention it to my pdoc. Thanks again. Big hugs

Originally Posted by Bipnik

Thank you so much JoBo for sharing your experiences! I'm so sorry you have had to suffer so much!! I too SH. What does EMDR stand for? I'm so glad that your therapies are helping you. I will take your advice and mention it to my pdoc. Thanks again. Big hugs

Eye Movement Desensitisation Reprocessing

[Bipnik]

Ooh that sounds intriguing thx