[Caelix3]

Not diagnosed with PTSD. But I believe I have it. Plus one therapist almost diagnosed me with it. But she was only a temporary therapist for a outpatient program. Didn't see her long enough to get a diagnosis. Then my recent therapist said what I experience is flashbacks.

So my older sister used to grab me,yell at me, and shake me. When I was little.

Ever since then I get anxious with loud noises or arguing.

Recently I noticed that whenever my sister is around. I can't look her in the eye, I get very irritable and angry when she is around, I also get on edge.

If she gets angry and does a certain face or look, I think back to when she used to hurt me.

Weird thing is before she moved out, we became close and got along. I could look her in the eye and not feel angry or irritable or on edge.

But ever since she moved out. Whenever she visits. We don't get along that often and I feel on edge, angry and irritable, and can't look her in the eye.

Maybe it's because she acts like her old self when she used to hurt me. With her moodiness.

Either way it's causing problems. I dread whenever she comes over. Because my mood completely changes. I can't help it, it's like out of my control.

Does anyone have any suggestions on coping with when she visits?

Even if I distract myself it doesn't go away. The on edge,irritable and angry feeling.