The shelters open soon

I almost hate to think about the shelters opening up again. In some ways I love it--but in other ways I hate it and don't want to talk about it. They have always refused to do *anything* to improve my situation--not even talk to the *Idiot* who stalked me and more that time about staying away from me at the sites, not talking to me, etc. Not even under a doctor's request. I react when (*IT*) is around!! They refused to talk to my T about it last year. Even if I had a letter stating something, they said they wouldn't change anything. I figure there must be some way. I'd think this sort of thing could be considered like a disability and they should need--be required--to make accommodations the best they can. It's not right! They won't even talk to the Idiot! They have always thought it made leverage to try and get me out of the program because I don't want to be around *It*. That's the wrong way to think. I only get worse from having to be around *It* which moves me backward, not forward. Look where I am now! Everything that's happened. How do I move forward if my mind is freaking emotionally because *It* dared to talk to me at some site? It can't be done. Last winter I used to take frequent "vacations" staying in my car at night to avoid *It* and try to let my mind rest. I'd go back, and everything would repeat. I don't have a car to stay in anymore if I'd want to do that. I hate to think what could come of my mind. In about 2 months will be the one year anniversary of turning myself in at the ER for the 1st time after taking the Tylenol. Dare to think? What will I be like by then? I'm scared.

Plus the word is this guy has HIV/AIDS now. I'm too afraid to talk about the subject of this *Idiot* from my past! My T, my doctor, anyone--I'm too scared to talk about what happened.

im so sorry (((((((((((((((inkblot ))))))))))))))))))

hope you can vent here to help you get rid of some of those tensions

I'm sorry you have to deal with "it". Is there any other place you could go?

I volunteer at a women's shelter and the social worker that works there has lived all over the US and she says for every one women's shelter there are at least 10 for men.(that is-- a shelter where women are just down on their luck--not abused or in danger of being killed by a partner-- I don't think women are allowed, in this country anyway, to be down on their luck )

The city I live in only has ONE very small shelter for women, we are turning away women in need every day ......yet there are over a dozen men's shelters. ... the social worker said that's how it is nation wide! argh!! that just gets me boiling! )

I wish you the best inkblot and hope something works out for you. My fingers and fins are crossed.

mandy

"edited" to add a sentence that I forgot......

hope you are ok INKBLOT.

I have a phonestalker and am working on doing something
about it.I have to have heaps of proof.They are tracing his
phonecalls.There have been like 100's since 2002 but I only
just had the sense of what to do about it.They have traced
about 9 phone calls but still say its not enough yet.Uggh!!
I think it all started because of a friend of my sons.This young
man is the son of a schoolteacher.I once tried to talk to her
her about it...but she said "Not my son"......Ugggh!!!

well I'm hoping for your situation to improve.

kind sincere thoughts to you..Jjulia

(((inky)))

Can you share what you have to help make your life more bearable while in the shelter? Are there things you need, or do you still have your car to keep stuff in?

(((Inky))) I hope it gets better soon--and please stay safe, that is the most important thing...