When is Enough... Enough????

Is it when I am forced back into a horrible memory.. by flashback... to be triggered by who.. what.. a smell.. a touch.. a color.. a sound..

Is it when I am forced to re-live.. the pain.. the memories.. stored in my body... to be triggered.. whenever.. however..

Is it when I don't get to have a "life"... a "real life" because of my past.. pain oozing.. and seeping into my current life.

Is it... when I am soo soo alone.. because my abusers.. made sure.. that I would never be able to connect with anyone one in life.... for me to live in a bubble of isolation..

Is it.. when I feel the shame.. of a lifetime..descend on me in an instant.. to be felt like a blow to my tummy..

Enough.......... is Enough.. I can stand "life" no more.

I've asked myself that question too many times to count. Sending you so much love and care. Please know this will go away, fight and don't let them beat you. what right do they have to f..k up the whole of your life when they did so much already?? dont let them beat you my friend, we will get through this WE WILL keep saying it.

here for you

Jinny xoxoxoxoxo

[recluse1]

((((((freewill))))))) in my thoughts and prayers my friend. i am here and you can pm me anytime.

recluse1

[heyjoe]

I see you connecting every day here freewill with other people. You are too hard on yourself at times. That is the worst thing about ptsd, it rears its ugly head when you least expect it. The people who hurt you were the problem not you.

[Fuzzybear]