[mythrider]

Venting, but feel free to give advice, support or whatever.

I don’t know how much longer I can handle it. I’m very sick right now with a bad virus and laryngitis and possibly bronchitis. I have no voice. I have to go to work today, but I couldn’t sleep much tonight. I wake up with a severe burn in my throat and then can’t fall back asleep for a few hours. I have to be at work in 2 hours and I’ve been up since 4 but I got 5? Hours of sleep.


I am moving this weekend. It’s a big life change for me and with being sick, I don’t know how much I’ll be able to move. We have people moving furniture, but I haven’t boxed everything because I’m sick.

I wanted to get my wedding thank you notes all out (I have 20? Left) and it was a very large wedding but it will be 6 months since our wedding this weekend.

I am mad at my parents. They didn’t call to ask how I am, but are worried about my brother. They know I have a terrible immune system and get horribly sick and can’t heal myself, but my mother is being toxic. I want to ask for help, but don’t know what to do.

I just have so much on my plate and on top of that I’m very sick. We have to pay our mortgage now, but my husband was sick too so he might not get paid for two weeks and idk if I am at this point. I won’t get fired, but I won’t get paid. I have extra money and that’s why we are moving because our rent was too high.

My executive functioning difficulties are making me have panic attacks and breakdowns. I know I’m not alone, and I know my husband will help me, but my mind doesn’t feel comfortable right now. I’m going to explode and I got no sleep so idk. I just need help. I probably have more help than I realize, but it doesn’t feel like it. Oh and I don’t have Therapy for two weeks

I just can’t do it all. I’m only human with complex ptsd. Anyone else know this feeling? Hugs please?

[Yzen]

I'm sorry you are sick and overwhelmed.

Maybe your husband can help you get the packing finished or try to think of someone else that would be willing to help.

I'll put the thank you notes on the backburner. You can always write that you are sorry for the late thank you but you were moving and appreciate them at your wedding.

I hope you get well very soon!

[mythrider]

Originally Posted by Yzen

I'm sorry you are sick and overwhelmed.

Maybe your husband can help you get the packing finished or try to think of someone else that would be willing to help.

I'll put the thank you notes on the backburner. You can always write that you are sorry for the late thank you but you were moving and appreciate them at your wedding.

I hope you get well very soon!

My husband is helping more than I realize. He helped throw out a lot of stuff (papers and stuff). I took off again so I guess I won’t get paid this week. Tomorrow the furniture is moved.

I just don’t do well with life changes.

[Yzen]

Originally Posted by mythrider

I just don’t do well with life changes.

You are doing better with these life changes than you might realize. Moving is work and can be emotional. It's hard to go through many changes in one year and not struggle at some point, especially when you add sickness and no sleep in there. You are doing your best with the circumstances and that is all you can do. You are making tradeoffs to move forward. That is good -- we can't do it all.

Please don't forget to find time to take care of yourself.

[Yzen]

mythrider, how did the move go?

[mythrider]

sorry just finished moving today. We hand in the keys this afternoon. It went okay, but I'm still sick. All of the boxes are either on the stairwell or in the garage and we have yet to unpack. I'm feeling more relieved now that the move is basically done. Note to anyone moving: PACK AHEAD OF TIME

[mythrider]

Oh also my mom called me up today to tell me everything I've ever done wrong. My therapist is away this week so it's been uh, annoying. Mom says I am a horrible adult and don't deserve anything. She also says I'm a liar and a pig. I'm like thanks?

[Werewoman]

Why do you let your mom talk to you that way? Hang up the effing phone when she acts like that. I don't talk to my mom anymore. One can only take so much.