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Trigger warning::::: self harm mentions
I've been researching ptsd a little bit because I believe I have some of the symptoms. I grew up with a dad who wasn't really involved. When he was he was a very mean person. He would get very angry and he drank alot. When he was mad he would yell and throw things and I blocked alot of that part of my childhood out but I can remember always being scared. My older brother demonstrates the same violent behavior now. My dad doesn't live with us now but when I see him and when he gets angry, I have severe panic attacks, same when my brother gets mad. I've noticed that if a man ever yells or gets violent I have super bad panic attacks. I have panic attacks because of different things but the ones caused be men seem to be alot worse. The other day at work I was screamed at bad my a man and couldn't calm myself down. I felt like I couldn't breathe and sometimes the only way I can call down is to self harm. Wondering if anyone thinks this could be ptsd

[seeker33]

I can't say if it is the diagnosis of PTSD, complex trauma or something else but finding a good therapist and learning grounding tools would definitely be very helpful. I wish you all the best! I hope you'll learn to protect yourself from behaviour like this. No one deserves to be treated so badly.

[Unrigged64072835]

We can't diagnose you here, but I would recommend seeing a mental health professional for some help.