[Lauru]

I scored 171. I am so depressed and feel worthless and hopeless, and all the rest that comes with your depression. My pdoc and T are keeping up with me, and I am taking some time off work. But I have to say, I don't have much hope.

[Satu]

Keep in mind that your score can't be compared to anyone else. If you have more conditions than someone else (phobias, anxiety, etc.), you automatically score higher than someone with a "more severe" illness but less additional issues. Don't use the score as something discouraging, instead try to identify the areas where you are having problems. Keep posting, talking, and going to your doctor, and don't forget to tell your Dr. about worsening moods, suicidal thoughts, etc. Don't give up, it IS possible to get better!!

[lost13]

keep your head up, you'll get better

[shezbut]

(((Lauru)))

I am sorry that you're feeling so hopeless.

I understand where you're coming from.

Just continue to work towards feeling better. It takes time and perserverance. Try to enjoy the very little things in life to get some enjoyment & appreciation for the day.

Nature works well for me to boost my mood a bit. Carefully examine a leaf. Watch the trees sway in the breeze. Listen to birds chirping, wings flapping, squirrels chattering, waves of the ocean or lake breaking onto shore, etc. It reminds me that there is beauty in the world. Simple beauty, but it can be breathtaking and reassuring in my opinion.

[acw56]

Originally Posted by Lauru

I scored 171. I am so depressed and feel worthless and hopeless, and all the rest that comes with your depression. My pdoc and T are keeping up with me, and I am taking some time off work. But I have to say, I don't have much hope.

I know it can feel like such a useless sentiment, because feelings are different from reality, but remember that everyone on this message board sees worth in you, otherwise they would not be offering their encouragement and support. It's not completely up to you to decide your worth, you know? I see (at least part of) your worth from probably 1000 miles away. It's good that you post and keep in touch with people even when you're feeling so hopeless.
Try not to fixate on the score. Tests like that are not designed to be perfectly accurate for all users. And even if you see accuracy in that number, you can use your test results to try to get to the bottom of your problems, and use that number as a goal-setting device rather than a condemnation.
Feel better!