[AmieW]

There were two things that stuck out for me. 1) It said I was dissociative, which may be why I can remember every single old BF's first name, but not their last. In fact, there are a lot of people in my life whose last names I can't remember, usually people who hurt me in some way. I guess that de-personalizes them to an extent in my mind.

2) Traits of Borderline Personality Disorder. I've long thought I have BPD, but from what I understand, it's very hard to diagnose unless you can be around someone quite a bit without their being medicated. I've had one shrink tell me I might be, but that I would have to be off my meds and in the hospital for 30 days for him to really diagnose me. When people try to say I'm not, I remind them that they do not live with me.

In fact, no one lives with me, because I can't stand having someone live with me. I can be quite cruel to people I am forced to live with, so I just try to stay on my own.