[gabbylove]

im kind of surprised it was this high or that i have 9 major concerns!! guess i'll list them and how i feel about it for the purpose of support and for a place where i can look back later in an easy and timely fashion.

mind you, i haven't been diagnosed by a doctor because i'm more than afraid of therapy. but a lot of things i've looked up and it runs in my genetics as well. so my main reasons for being here is support and a close relationship with people just as crazy as me!(kidding of course<3)

major:
General Coping (75): it says that seeking out help would be a great change that i'd need. and i've honestly kind of figured it was about time. my anxiety how ever tends to get the best of me sometimes.
Depression (72): it's kind of high...and a bit higher than i expected. i never sensed my depression was that bad. or well i have, just i guess i decided to ignore it a bit?
Anxiety (66): this is unsurprising since anxieties run in my family and i've been anxious to the point of panic attacks quite often recently. last night especially. but i'm far from surprised about my numbers.
Phobias (58): yes i have an extreme phobia...of wait for it...birds. it's not a simple fear where i just am scared. i dont know where this stems from but it has gotten worse over the years. and its not just birds...its more flying creatures in general?
Self-Esteem (83): i have a big self-esteem issue that i'm not sure i'm ready to openly discuss just yet.
Eating Disorders (65): i have often thought about either starving myself or well binging and purging (for a lack of better words...no offense was intentional). but i guess i'm a little more afraid of the action of vomiting than i am of the ugliness i feel of my body. but i do tend to overeat to feel a void and i realize that itself is an eating disorder.
Mania (75): however unsurprising, my mood swings tend to very quickly and not weeks/months/days/years like with most bipolar/manic people. its one second to the next i'm a different person. which is why i've always felt i'm more borderline? who knows...guess why i need a doctor
Technology Issues (81): i actually completely get this one and might need a bit of help. this is mostly because i feel i connect more with people when i can't see them. when i can't freak out because they are near. it's horrible and bad but it's just i've come more addicted to writing on rp forums and talkign to people in this sense.
Borderline Traits (58): this doesn't surprise me since i'm here on psych central to kind of figure out if i have bpd or not...and to figure out if its yet to a point where i need help. i'm not completely out of control because i have always had to control my add and other problems before (due to me wanting to please my family with my grades and unwant of medication) that at first it was easy to control the thoughts but has now become quite difficult.

minor:
Life Events (31): i really have no thoughts other than it makes a bit of sense.
Dissociation (25): this was more than a little surprising but i tend to lose track of time a bit. its nothing major which is why i'm not surprised its low if at all. its kind of an intriguing thing to really find out about myself
Obsessions/Compulsions (50): i feel very freaked when things are out of place but because i feel so drained most of the time...i dont have the energy to get up and fix the problems. instead i sit/lay or avoid the areas in which it bothers me. leading me to eat less than normal if the kitchens a mess. or just stay in one spot to ignore the other dirty spots

other scores:
Schizophrenia (10): more than a little....though low enough of a score to not be a problem. its still a score i thought would be 0
Sexual Issues (13): not surprising.

[Travelinglady]

Well, it does seem like, as you acknowledged, that you have some issues that might be negatively affecting your life. I know you said you are a bit hesitant about therapy, but I agree that you might try some sessions. No need to fear. Gee, I've seen many therapists over the years and haven't been bitten yet. These folks genuinely care about people and want to help. If the match just doesn't seem to mesh after a few sessions, then you can move on to someone else. (But try to hang in and give it a really good try.)

I think you will find that life will get better as you work through some things. (Yes, therapy is work.)

Never fear, though: It doesn't appear that you are "wacko" by any means!

[shortandcute]

My score was 198 with 13 concerns.