[arachnophobia.kid]

Was 114 about a year ago, now I'm 116. Not terribly concerning.

But now I'm considering going back into therapy. I've never felt that I got a lot out of the several attempts I made with different therapists, I always just end up in the same place. But... every once in a while I want to try again. This time cause I think I've got a lot of things I can talk about, the evaluation page of the sanity test is kind of unsettling when you see that there are 6 major areas of concern.

It'd just be nice to get some clarity or an official diagnosis as opposed to multiple internet tests telling me what is potentially wrong with me.

But here's the bad part. I like the idea of getting prescription drugs. It's really bad that that is a motivation for starting therapy. I have a bit of a drug habit. And also I'm not really too sure how much I trust the whole therapy process or the health system in general. So there's that.

So should I seek help or not? I don't know.

[Wren_]

if you know there are areas of concern then seeking help seems like a good idea ... did you always do the same type of therapy in the past? maybe changing to a different type could help

also ... could you mention what you shared here regarding your drug habit to a therapist if you do begin therapy again?

[arachnophobia.kid]

I could try some different types of therapy that's true, thanks for that sugestion. I'll look into that to see if something in particular interests me or sounds more helpful.

Yes I would definitely tell them about my drug habit, I always have in the past because what's the point if I'm not going to be honest with them? I suppose that's part of the reason they never prescribed any medication to me in the past. That and all the therapists I've seen told me that they disagreed with the use of medication unless it was an extreme case.

But at this point I can't afford any kind of private practice and I hear when you go the government funded route they are more likely to prescribe things. Also I've heard the quality of care is generally lower. I have no idea though, that could all be untrue.