[mewarrow]

General Coping 79
Life Events 25
Depression 75
Anxiety 54
Phobias 50
Self-Esteem 100
Eating Disorders 15
Schizophrenia 20
Dissociation 17
Mania 40
Sexual Issues 38
Relationship Issues 56
Alcohol 0
Drugs 0
Physical Issues 0
Smoking Issues 0
Gambling Issues 0
Technology Issues 50
Obsessions/Compulsions 69
Posttraumatic Stress 42
Borderline Traits 75

Uh.

Well, this was from more than a year ago, but the score is pretty much the same. Major issues in self esteem, borderline traits, coping and depression...as well as still scoring 0 in those that I scored 0 here.

"Some" distress...yeah riiiiight. This test is just a test but it sure makes me feel awful ahaha.

[Travelinglady]

Yeah, Mewarrow, the same score as earlier would be upsetting. Have you taken these scores to a therapist? I see your highest score is self-esteem, which to me could lead to some of the other issues such as depression and relationship problems. Is self-esteem something that might be addressed in your treatment program?

(All that said, I have seen much higher scores, if that makes you feel better at all. )

[mewarrow]

Well higher scores actually make me feel worse...hahaha seeing a low score and being told that I'm just going through a little difficulty but otherwise doing fine, it pisses me off and reminds me of everyone not taking my words seriously just because I look okay???

I know a lower score is something good, but it just makes me feel lousy. I can't get a high score in anything.

I guess that's my low self esteem in effect. Hahaha

But well, my therapist and I went through things like self esteem and perfectionism but it's not making me feel any better. I've always been this way, after all.

[Travelinglady]

Other folks have said the same thing, such as, "I feel so messed up, so I don't understand why my score isn't higher." Well, 127 does show some problems, if that makes you feel better. (I am doing my best to make you feel better, anyway! )

Well, I don't think you were born with low self-esteem. Were you abused in any way when you were growing up--put down, criticized a lot, etc.? How about checking out the Survivors of Abuse forum to see if any of that rings a bell? Here's the link: http://forums.psychcentral.com/survivors-abuse/.

[mewarrow]

Well kind of the opposite, really. I was complimented quite a lot in the past but not anymore. Things like drawing. So I guess I got dependent on others and if no one says good things about me, I feel that I'm all bad. Haha

But thanks again! Whenever I complain to other people, they get upset and sometimes don't seem to care...so I was kinda nervous here too.