[MissMonster]

It said I have NINE serious concerns and six minor ones. I always knew that I had "issues" but I'm only starting to realize how badly they've been affecting my life.

General Coping 71
Life Events 38
Depression 63
Anxiety 62
Phobias 75
Self-Esteem 58
Eating Disorders 35
Schizophrenia 20
Dissociation 25
Mania 65
Sexual Issues 31
Relationship Issues 38
Alcohol 33
Drugs 0
Physical Issues 0
Smoking Issues 0
Gambling Issues 0
Technology Issues 81
Obsessions/Compulsions 63
Posttraumatic Stress 17
Borderline Traits 58

I already knew about some of these but the mania and borderline scores weren't something I'd considered before and scares me a little.

[glok]

Hello, MissMonster. Perhaps, you might view the results within the context of knowledge is power.

I wish you well.

[MissMonster]

True that is definitely something to keep in mind. Mental illness has run rampant through my mom's side of the family both diagnosed and among those who buried their heads in the sand. The latter group did not fare so well. I made an appointment with a therapist for the 17th of this month so I hopefully don't end up like my grandmother's sisters.

[MissMonster]

Also I don't see an edit feature, but I'd like to say in addition to my first post some of my low scores were kind of surprising, like drugs (only marijuana) and sexual issues. The drug questions were phrased in certain ways like if I spend a lot of time trying to get drugs or thinking about getting drugs. I don't because, drugs are easy for me to get, but I would have had an entirely different result if they'd ask what percentage of the household income to I spend on it or how much I value drugs compared to other things.

I think I have sexual issues to. I was molested by my paternal grandmother's husband. They were drunks and he spent years touching me inappropriately. I still have trouble with even innocent gestures like handshakes or more recently a friend put his hand on my knee in a totally non sexual totally innocent situation and I jumped so high it startled him. I also identify as bisexual and at least one of my early relationships with another girl was extremely unhealthy. I was crazy about her, but I was also raised to believe that it was wrong and sometimes I would suddenly snap at her and call her disgusting, fat, ugly, a slut, she had bushy hair that she hated and I would often pick on her insecurity and tell her she looked like an animal. I didn't truly think any of these things. She was beautiful and I was crazy about her, I just wanted to hurt her. Maybe I am a sadist?

I just want to know what my issues are. All of a sudden I'm at a point where I want to be proactive and finally help myself. The 17th cannot get here fast enough! I just need to know.

[MissMonster]

It occurred to me afterwards to add a trigger! I hope this works