[hadleyrae]

I got a 92 (out of 100) in PTSD.

I'm not diagnosed with PTSD. I expressed my concerns that I might have it to a therapist and she told me I didn't rather abruptly (made me feel shut-down?). But in the past, she's told me I didn't have bulimia when I continually made myself throw up after eating (which continued for months and I was even hospitalized because my heart was in danger of giving out) and later told me that nothing was wrong ("I was fine") after I think had a psychotic reaction to meds/ran away at midnight because I saw/felt dark shadowy things chasing me out of the house.

I know not being diagnosed doesn't mean I don't have it but I think I would feel more justified in my emotions and the difficulty I have just functioning every day if I was diagnosed with it and I'd find it a lot easier to ask for help - sometimes people think I ask for help because I'm irresponsible or lazy when I just have mental disorders. Like before I was diagnosed with depression, my dad called me lazy all the time. I wasn't lazy, I was depressed. Before I was diagnosed with/treated for anorexia I didn't even realize my eating habits were extreme or how terribly I was treating myself; it just seemed necessary to lose weight. I didn't think it was a problem (but now I'm happily fully recovered, weight and mentally). I don't like to self-identify, or say I have things if I don't have medical proof of it. I don't want to look like I'm lying or making things up for attention.

I've had a lot of problems with screen memories, and I know/suspect this because I have dreams about what really might've happened and I have flashbacks when something triggering happens. When that happens there's usually a (literally) paralyzing anxiety attack that sometimes lasts more than 30 or 40 minutes. I started having anxiety attacks like this almost every single day around the same time and ended up dropping out of school because of it last semester. Anyways, I'm really looking for advice from anyone who might have something constructive or encouraging to say.. Thanks for reading.

[Skeezyks]

Hello hadleyrae: Well... I'm afraid I'm not the member you're looking for here. I don't really have any advice to offer. But I saw that no one had replied to your post. So I thought I would.

I don't really know what to tell you about this. I know in my own case I've always felt my mental health problems were belittled. I actually have never been given a formal diagnosis. But I presume there must be something written down somewhere for insurance purposes, if nothing else. I presume it would probably say: depression & anxiety... which is certainly true as far as it goes. But I also know, in my own heart (so to speak), there is a lot more to it than that. However, getting any mental health professional to recognize it is another matter.

Unfortunately, I don't know why that happens or what one can do about it other than to keep looking for better mental health professionals. (I presume there must be some somewhere.) I know I have read posts, here on PC, written by members who said their therapists saved their lives. So there must be really great ones out there. It's simply a matter of finding them. I wish you well...

[TishaBuv]

Hello and welcome to PC!

You've described several very dibilitating things that are keeping you back. I have no idea why a doctor would be so dismissive like that, but I don't care much for diagnoses anyway. The bottom line is, what is the solution to live a better life?

I suggest you start reading about the conditions and learn what you can while trying to see a new doctor. There are good articles here on PC off the Home page you can find them.

Keep posting and talking things through on here with others who share these things in common with you. I've learned a lot about myself here.