136

Okay? So what is this supposed to make me feel exactly?
I also have 9 serious concerns of; General Coping - Depression - Anxiety - Phobias - Schizophrenia - Dissociation - Mania/Bipolar - Ocd - Borderline Traits

I know I was told that I had possible aspergers syndrome but I've never had problems getting along with people. I just don't understand how people think is all. And i guess depression and anxiety are there as well.

I recently went off work force to get mental and sleep help due to having hallucinations at work and that all my coworkers were bad people trying to get me fired and talking behind my back to one another. I was sleeping 15 hours and no one including my parents were concerned they just told me to get over it. It got so bad i can't wake up for almost 2 hours after i initially "wake up" and be late for work so i quit for sleep study. They diagnosed me with narcolepsy but then no meds worked and i was sent to university of michigan. They consulted me and mentioned a tic/ocd disorder because i always crack and twitch my bones and face and now i wish they said nothing because it makes me notice it and it gets more violent and painful. they made me do a bracelt test for 2 weeks and another visit i told them i want to sleep less and that i thought i was there for tic disorders and they said we should met again when you're employed and then we can adjust your sleep. they meant not in duration but wake and sleep time. So i quit my job just to get help and then they tell me to get one in the end and i haven't heard since. why would they tell me about tic disorder and don't refer me somewhere it's worse than ever now.

At this point i trust no doctor at all anymore for mental help. They only care about money and seldom give a crap about their patients. I have had therapy for 6 years now. I tell them i hear and see the people who want to get me and have been terrified for for years and that my coworkers always end up being in line with their pursuit. I tell them i painfully pull out my hair pick and rip my skin till bleeding that i hit myself in frustration even with things i can't control. I tell them i sleep 15-12 hours most nights and until i yelled at them they do something that i end up doing myself anyway because i was sick of it. The psychiatrist is a hack who should retire as in have her license or certifications voided. she forgets my name writes improper doses that throw me off forgets my file off location and i have to go all the way home to get the damn bottles so she knows my dose has little interest in anything i say. mental doctors are hacks and can do no good in this world but charge your card and insurance. so far that's my understanding.

So why should i trust this anyway. If this is telling me anything it's saying my treatment really is mismanaged and i throw money down a god damn hole every two weeks. I'm in pain constantly by my own hand and no matter how much i express myself i get long pauses or a "sorry say that again". Apparently these people are immune to peoples internal suffering to the point they slight their purpose in this world. The meds i got only help me wake up faster. the sleep one only does nothing and costs 250 dollars a month. what's the point? Everyones ears are open but no one listens

Hello pco: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time getting appropriate treatment. I understand where you're coming from though. I no longer receive any mental health services. I gave up trying some time ago. Since this is your first post here on PC though... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

Here are links to a couple of articles from PsychCentral's archives that may be of some help with regard to understanding your results:

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https://sanity.psychcentral.com/about/science

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I scored 136 myself, but I feel like you're having a lot more to deal with than I do. I've got 8 areas of concerns, with OCD and Borderline both at 88. I guess it feels different since the nature of our problems are pretty different.