[cduval04]

My OCD was getting worse, and I was developing anxiety, my pshyciatrist prescribed me Buspirone (BuSpar) 5 mg tabs take one every night for 4 days then take one in the morn and one at night. I took one the first night, and it made me out of it, so I put it away and didn't take anymore. Then about a week ago I ran out of klonopin so I began taking it again first 1 tab daily, then my mom said "why don't you just break it in half if u think its too strong" so I did, I seemed calmer and less anxious, but after about 4 days I began having intrusive thoughts about overdosing on pills, Fri night I took 30 muscle relaxant pills, about 8mg of kpin, about 9mg of melatonin and 175mg of benadryl, I woke in the morn totally messed, and at that point I stopped the buspar. I spent all of sun thinking it was sat.

so I was so messed I forgot to take my meds sat morn (luvox, thyroid, clonindine, propranolol, & OTC zyrtec), then sat night I was better but accidentally took the pills from the morning slot instead of the nighttime one. and of course the 1/2 of the 5mg buspar pill was in there too. This morning I woke up with the intrusive thoughts again, they are so disturbing to me they make me sick tho my stomach, thus I do not WANT to die. My parents had taken all my pills from me, but I found a 6oz bottle of nyquil in my bros room with only about one dose missing. I chugged the whole thing. Then I slept for the afternoon and woke up and realized how much acetopminiphin was in it...500mg per tbsp...I looked up tylenol toxicity and it said 10 grams was toxic amount....my obsessive thoughts kicked in again becuase I saw the number 10 and knew I had only taken 5g....so I took 8-650mg tabs of extended release tylenol....I now have taken over 10grams.....

I know how crazy this sounds, but I feel like my OCD is messing with me...I am trying to fight it and it is winning....the only other obsession that I can relate this too is when I had an obsession to dial 911....I would be sick to my stomach 24/7 trying to hold myself back from doing it.......I don't know why that became an obsession....I guess with OCD it is something about the forbidden that drives the compulsions...(I also have tourette syndrome & sometimes it can be very difficult to distinguish between a tic and an obsession , a lot of people with TS's tics are actions or vocalizations that they know are socially unacceptable)

I know I could be risking my life if I don't tell my parents that I OD'd on tylenol, but I am afraid for theirs if I do. They don't deal well with stress....my dad has a history of bleeding ulcers and was recently dxed with a fib...a fib and extreme stress dont mix and he got enough of both (his brother is dying of liver failure and my brother is giving him half of his liver next month to save his life, & my dog of 14 years just died monday) I am also worried about losing my mother...her blood pressure skyrockets in response to stress and stroke is prevalant on her side of the family and if something happened to her as a result of my stupid overdosing brain, I could never live with myself. Also I know what is ahead for me, a trip to the ER, then off to the psych ward to get med adjustments.....I've been there before and it is HELL...

please give me advice.....I don't know how to explain to my parents that this isn't me, its the meds that are making me think this way. It's not my fault.

[online user]

Call 911 NOW and get help coming. Then give your parents this note, explaining what you have done. Let us know you are OK.

[IdoubtIT]

Yep, call 911, get to a hospital. You need help, you can' t do it on your own.

[Jerrypharmstudent]

I agree with the other posters - but it seems I may be too late with my reply. You need to stop taking the BuSpar and go to the ER. You have to take care of your self first and not worry about your mom and dad. Please let us know how you are if you are able to. If you are in a hospital by now you probably cannot reply, but when you do get home (if you are indeed in the hospital) please let use know how you are and what happened.

Jerry