has anyone struggled with the idea of taking meds?

I don't mind taking them, because I know how I can get when I don't. I was on and off for so many years, and once I realized how much better I can function when being on them and being stable for a good period of time, I know its one of those things thats going to be a part of my life. Like my mother for example, she has to take medication everyday for her thyroid, if she doesn't then she has horrible issues to deal with. The thyroid is responsible for so much that happens in the body. And so is the brain, we have to take care of it as needed. So if certain medications allow us to function, then whats the problem with taking them. At the end of the day, if you feel better and stable, then its not so bad.
Of course you have those that completely disagree, problems can be solved other ways. I was met with this when I realized that medication was going to become a part of my life for the long run and not short term. My family can't understand why I have to take pills everyday for some 'emotional issue'. But when I'm off of them and they see my behavior (bipolar), they understand that its just what I need.
Everyone has to make that choice, and for me it works. And now its just habit for me to open that bottle every night and take a few pills.

If you feel numb, then maybe you're not on the right medication/dosage. I have felt that way before, but my current cocktail has me feeling normal. Like I can actually function in life. It's hard to find the right doctor that can get it right, but its possible.