[HealingNSuffering]

I was a teenager, wellbutrin pooped out on me so they switched to paxil and concerta because I was so high strung on too many stimulants they thought I had ADHD. It was a welcome change at first because I was on concerta and wellbutrin at the same time and the "side effects" were making my anxiety really high, not to mention causing me a lot of "psycho-motor agitation"

It was about 3-4 weeks of taking it and everything got way worse for me: anxiety, depression, inner restlessness, I never had ADHD, the hyperactivity was a side effect of the wellbutrin. The feeling was so horrible I attempted suicide a total of 4 times in 1 week. Parents didn't hospitalize me, but my mother threw out the pills and I underwent the worst withdrawal syndrome of my entire life. I also stopped going to psychotherapy because I was hurt there and my mother wanted to deny her alcoholism was a problem for me.

I almost hung myself from a tree in the backyard but I had so much tears in my eyes I couldn't judge how much cord was too much and my feet touched the ground and I survived my encounter with "reuptake inhibitors" the worst drugs ever invented in my opinion. Still suffer from anxiety but am highly reluctant to take meds because of the risks involved. Just thought I'd share this here since nobody else wants to hear it.

[onionknight]

Hugs, friend. It sounds like you have had your share of challenges, both inside yourself and with others. Medication isn't the right way to get well for everyone, but if you experience anxiety , try to do something to cope with the symptoms.

[HealingNSuffering]

Originally Posted by onionknight

Hugs, friend. It sounds like you have had your share of challenges, both inside yourself and with others. Medication isn't the right way to get well for everyone, but if you experience anxiety , try to do something to cope with the symptoms.

Most definitely had a lot of challenges. I been in and out of treatment for the last 22 years, mostly therapy but the above story explains my experience with psychiatric medications. I like the new therapist I'm seeing and she recommended to visit a psychiatrist so I'm going to do an evaluation to get an accurate diagnosis for the insurance company. I've already decided I'm going to politely decline the medication if they want to put me on something I have to take every day. I would take a drug for anxiety if I didn't have to take it every day, because stress and anxiety related to PTSD is what causes me depression.

I've been coping with the anxiety pretty well for the most part, yesterday something triggered a fight or flight reaction and I walked away. I almost panicked, but then I laid on a couch, closed my eyes and did some stomach breathing. I didn't panic but I did get stressed, I ended up working out on the floor for 20 minutes instead of expressing my anger in an unproductive manner, I felt that I handled that situation quite well. And because of the exercise I slept really good last night. I agree that it is not for everybody, some of my friends have benefited greatly from drugs the psychiatrist put them on, others have gotten worse. Thanks for the input, friend.