Psych hospital

I'm seeing psychiatrist for 3 years and have taken MANY different meds but I'm still depressed, anxious, suicidal, destructive, too emotional, can't believe in good, see only bad things.
I'm so tired, I don't want to live and don't want to die, just can't live like this.
I hate meds, I think it's nonsense to take them. I'm addicted to benzos.
I want to be okay, I can't believe it's possible to find real meds for me.
Does hospital really help with finding meds?
I don't want to waste my time, I'm sick of trying meds again and again.
Does some of you have experience with finding meds being at hospital?
Do you think it's okay or just waste of time?

I think the you need to address the benzo addiction before you try a new medication. Substance use worsens mental illness and it interferes with treatment. It can even cause psychiatric symptoms in some people. For example, benzodiazepines can cause dissociation and hallucinations which can be mistaken for mental illness.

After this is dealt with treatment should improve.

I believe that if you feel that you need to go inpatient, you should. Let the p-docs there sort out your situation.

While thye have helped me many times, I have found that in my times there the drs just kept adding meds to my cocktail and at one time I was on like 5 different psych meds!

It sounds like inpatient might be helpful for you right now. I've been in twice, and both times I came out feeling improved and more hopeful about the future.

That said, shrinks in psych units do tend to throw a lot of medication at you because they have a limited amount of time to try and make a difference. I've come out on big cocktails.

Depmds entirely where you are and the calibre of the psych hopsital. Some hopsitals only do emergency stabilization for a few day. Others keep you in longer to try diferent meds. The best also offer talk therapy on top of meds.

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Going inpatient has certainly helped me with finding meds. It's nice because, in all the places I've been, you see a pdoc every day and they are able to regulate your meds very closely to see what's working and what's not.
good luck!

I've found for strictly med issues, the hospital isn't super helpful. If I'm also a danger to myself, of course I'm going to end up there, but medication-wise all they really do is add a med and let me go before we really know what it's going to do. Last time they put me on Saphris and ditched me when it looked like it was working, only for me to crash into a 3 month depression when I got out and failed all my classes. I'd rather work on meds with my pdoc and stay close with the crisis services just in case, instead of hospital again.

But then again, it depends on your location and what you want to get out of it.

Hospitalization can help with finding the right medication because things can be changed more quickly than with outpatient. Doses can be increased every day instead of every week. Medications can be switched easily. And your response to all this is closely monitored until they think they've found a good solution.

They didn't mess around with my medication too much while I was inpatient. The only thing they did was try out a couple different ones to help me sleep, and they were successful after a few days. Too successful at one point. They knocked me out so I was basically drunk the next day. But that was fixed the next night.

I came to this thread planning to say it's not helpful, but now it looks like my opinion is actually the exact opposite.