[blo0dchild]

I said last weekend? That I was in love with my new emotion regulation program blah blah blah. Well apparently due to a clinical error (they can't really explain it, and every person's clinical error is different) so now they put me in a trauma and addiction program because even though I'm receiving substance abuse treatment elsewhere, they said they want me in their substance abuse program. WTF!! I needed that program to help myself and see my son. Now I feel so helpless an hopeless that I'm seriously gonna tell them in group that I just wanna kill myself cos then maybe they'll send me inpatient and maybe I'll get the help I need. FML right now for real for real.

[kaliope]

i am sorry they took you out of the group that you needed. do you have an advocate or case worker who can explain your situation? would following thru on your plans for inpatient be in your best interests in getting your child back in the long run?

[blo0dchild]

Nah, no advocate. I did find out that the dual people told the women's people that they did a psych eval, even though I never got one until Friday 10/10, and I'll hopefully be finished with it tomorrow 10/13. Maybe after that they'll put me back. Ah well. The best thing they can do is let me do the whole Trauma/Addiction course, then let me do the whole Emotion Regulation course. That'll be 9 weeks, but whatever. And about going inpaitent, it could help me with seeing Hayden again since they have more resources and stuff. In order to start seeing him again, I really only need to "complete psychotherapy" and the Trauma/Addiction program I don't think family court will take. But when I'm finally done at P House, I'm gonna set myself up with a 1 on 1 therapist, or maybe sooner since most of the places I'm interested in have waiting lists since poor, broke me lol has Medicaid