[muse]

Posting this here because it has to do with a drug more than anything else. I hope that's okay, and if not feel free to move this wherever.

So I'm back on 150mg Wellbutrin, and it's helping. Doing exactly what it's supposed to do. It's taken the edge of my anxiety, and it's probably helping me focus a little.

So why do I feel guilty and ashamed admitting that to my parents?

I guess it's because I've driven them headlong through so much, not the least of which being panic attacks, me weeping and confused and upset, actually ASKING them for therapy... and now it's like, "Well, looks like all you needed was the Wellbutrin, you're doing fine now," like nothing I've been expressing to them was valid and could all have been circumvented had I been less selfish and just TAKEN the damn drug.

Anybody else ever felt this way?
Thanks much,
good thoughts to all,
~muse

(((((((Muse))))))) Don't feel ashamed. You need therapy too for when you get off the drug-you don't want to take the drug your whole life.

[muse]

Thanks much, Jax. That's what I've been trying to tell myself, but sometimes it gets all squidgy for no apparent reason. If that makes any sense.

[Maven]

Jax, while I agree these drugs aren't good in a lot of ways, why wouldn't she take the drug her whole life? Most people expect they'll be taking the drugs for the rest of their life. I'm not criticizing your views--I agree it's better to learn to handle these problems, when possible, without drugs--I'm just curious.

[zapot7]

Taking the drug your whole life wouldn't be so bad. I'm going to be on something for ADD forever, and I'm not too worried about it.

But I agree that therapy and drugs working hand in hand will produce the best results, and drugs alone won't change behaviours.

Just my two cents. Good luck Muse! Tell your parents that the wellbutrin is a start, but there's work to be done.