[TishaBuv]

I started taking it again, felt really good and up, then let myself run out of the samples without getting the prescription filled (I don't know why) and now I've been very down since.

Reached out to the one I shouldn't, only to be let down as usual.

The negative voices really talking bad to myself.

Blah, can't do much.

[*Laurie*]

Always hurts triple times when we reach out to the one we know we shouldn't and get let down...again.

[TishaBuv]

Originally Posted by *Laurie*

Always hurts triple times when we reach out to the one we know we shouldn't and get let down...again.

I was so proud of myself for letting go. Then I had some lame excuse to say hi. That's really why the negative voices started whispering insults in my ear.

I know it doesn't matter at all. Nothing lost/ nothing gained.

After all the soul searching and research I've done, I can't understand why I have this bizarre fixation.

I don't go to t about it, because I can't bear to even hear myself speak about it-- it's so stupid! Yet, it's had a huge effect on my life.

Then again, it's nothing, nothing happened. It's just rumination in my mind.

OCD, I think, is the real culprit.

Originally Posted by TishaBuv

I started taking it again, felt really good and up, then let myself run out of the samples without getting the prescription filled (I don't know why) and now I've been very down since.

Reached out to the one I shouldn't, only to be let down as usual.

The negative voices really talking bad to myself.

Blah, can't do much.

My understanding is that there are some similarities between Lyrica and Gabapentin. I have taken gabapentin. The negative voices may have increased because of what I call the yo yo effect. Gabapentin decreases my anxiety and slows my thinking down so when I am on it then stop taking it, my anxiety and ruminations are worse than normal for about 3 days (withdrawal). Some of the things we beat up our selves about are just "chemical" and "bad habits". Don't beat up on yourself so much--I bet the voices will calm down soon.....