[leomama]

Hi everyone,
Last night I hit the hay at 12:55am. Not good. Yesterday I found out my daughter cracked her laptop and needed to use mine but I needed to moderate a 3 hour chat so she had to wait until I was done hence the late bedtime. She stepped on her laptop which a scholarship program she dropped out of gave to her. I think she might've been high when she stepped on it so now I have to take it to the geek squad to fix it.
My psych nurse told me at my last appointment just take seroquel until your stress level dies down and with a substance abusing mood disordered daughter and a sociopathic bipolar ex I don't see that happening soon. Although my daughter and my ex have been on good behavior for two days I have no guarantee it will last.
It's really hard for me to drug myself to sleep at 9pm but that's what I have to do because my daughter's alarm goes off at 6am.
I mentioned ambien and fit bit because I took ambien last night and I wear a fit bit so I can track my sleep. I also have sleep cycle on my phone. The ambien did not last and when my daughter's alarm went off at 6am I woke up. That's why tonight I'm taking seroquel at 9pm. I have to force myself to do this. I resent having to go to bed so early so I can sleep. I know this is what employed people have to do but because I'm self employed I have more flexibility however since my daughter is in school I have to follow her schedule. Needless to say I can't focus on my painting and I need to submit it next week. I'm so frustrated .

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

[triplewater11]

Originally Posted by leomama

Hi everyone,
Last night I hit the hay at 12:55am. Not good. Yesterday I found out my daughter cracked her laptop and needed to use mine but I needed to moderate a 3 hour chat so she had to wait until I was done hence the late bedtime. She stepped on her laptop which a scholarship program she dropped out of gave to her. I think she might've been high when she stepped on it so now I have to take it to the geek squad to fix it.
My psych nurse told me at my last appointment just take seroquel until your stress level dies down and with a substance abusing mood disordered daughter and a sociopathic bipolar ex I don't see that happening soon. Although my daughter and my ex have been on good behavior for two days I have no guarantee it will last.
It's really hard for me to drug myself to sleep at 9pm but that's what I have to do because my daughter's alarm goes off at 6am.
I mentioned ambien and fit bit because I took ambien last night and I wear a fit bit so I can track my sleep. I also have sleep cycle on my phone. The ambien did not last and when my daughter's alarm went off at 6am I woke up. That's why tonight I'm taking seroquel at 9pm. I have to force myself to do this. I resent having to go to bed so early so I can sleep. I know this is what employed people have to do but because I'm self employed I have more flexibility however since my daughter is in school I have to follow her schedule. Needless to say I can't focus on my painting and I need to submit it next week. I'm so frustrated .

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

I am sorry to hear about all these stressors hitting at once. I can understand the resentment about having to force yourself to go to bed earlier to get enough sleep, especially when you are on a different biorhythm! I hope that things settle down soon, and you can get re-focused on the painting! I totally understand not wanting to drug yourself to sleep, I feel this way right now too about myself.

[leomama]

Originally Posted by triplewater11

I am sorry to hear about all these stressors hitting at once. I can understand the resentment about having to force yourself to go to bed earlier to get enough sleep, especially when you are on a different biorhythm! I hope that things settle down soon, and you can get re-focused on the painting! I totally understand not wanting to drug yourself to sleep, I feel this way right now too about myself.

Thank you, its so hard because i don't know when my d's coming home but I do know when her alarm's going off. Over the summer I had a bag packed for the ER with an energy drink powder in it in case the sheriff knocked on my door again. That happened once already.

It was embarrassing to me to have to explain that I have PTSD and took something to sleep.

I'm going to have to drug myself asleep and drug myself awake, and maybe that's what its like until my daughter turns 18. Hey, I have an excellent psych nurse, so its ok. This sure isn't how I grew up. My mother hates psychiatric medications, my father hates psychiatrists, so as you can imagine this is hell for me, but oh well! It takes what it takes to get the job done.