Citalopram and Buspar with the story

So a very breif rundown of what has happened... My wife and I have been together for 16 years. July 10th, I discovered she was having an affair for about 3 months. It absolutely devastated me. She is the last person in the world I, and most people, would ever expect to do that. I was a teacher and had to go back to work. I was having major anxiety and depression and there was no way I could step in front of high school students. So I went to our clinic where a nurse practitioner heard my story and started me on 20mg of Citalopram and 10mg of Buspar (for sleep). My wife waited with our two children in the lobby. The nurse didn't explain any of the possible side effects, only warned me about notifying her of increased anxiety or suicidal thoughts. This was July 23rd. Th8ngs were upside down and a roller coaster to say the least. I was not sleeping more than 2 to 3 hours a night. I tried to return to work, but I really just could not do it. By August 14th, I returned to the clinic. My blood pressure had skyrocketed to the point they talked about taking me to the hospital. After taking it 3 or 4 times it finally read below the mark for hospitalization but was still extremely high. I usually have a very low blood pressure. The same nurse attributed the high bp to stress. She decided to double the Citalopram to 40mg and triple the Buspar to 30mg (x3 a day). This is when my major psychological problems began. I basically stopped sleeping. If I did sleep I had horrible vivid nightnares that jarred me awake. I began to really obsess over thhe affair. I felt like I wanted to crawl out of my skin. I started to believe that everyone was against me and wanted me out of the picture. I did have a lot of suicidal thoughts but no plans. I thought a lot avout hurting the man that had the affaor with my wife. I even confronted him and drive past his work and house. I became uncontrollably angry, irratable, impulsive. The thing is though, I also didnt care at all. I couldnt recognize my self destructive behavior. I was almost hit by a car and didnt even flinch. I was fired from my job amd cpuld care less. I just kept spiraling out of control and sleeping less and less. In one bought if uncontrollable rage I threatened my wife's life and she left to stay with her mom. Bbeing alone made things a LOT worse. I was convinced of a lot of things that had no foundation. Things now that I know arent true but was absolutely sure then. It's sort of weird because I remember them like they were real, but looking back now I know they weren't. I ran out of the buspar for about a week. During that time I was able to sleep fairly regular. My wife and I had a "good" week.. as in nothing heavy (this was just before I threatned her). I went back to the clinic on August 21st and the refilled the orescriptions and I immediately resumed the 30mg x3 day Buspar. Looking back, I started not being able to sleep and having extreme internal restlessness/torment. This all culminated when my wife stopped by our house and stayed for a while. I begged her to stay... that I wasnt ok. I needed someone. By this point she was broken too. She said she was not going to stay. I wanted to lay down and cry. That was the last thing I remembered until I "came to" and was on top of her with our children screaming the most horrible screams. She later told me that I strted crying then looked up at her with an evil look and started punching her... then choking her unconcience...I then wanted to kill myself. I rode with her and the kids to the hospital and asked to be committed. I was arrested and later sent to a psychiatric center. I have seen psychiatrists that say that I had a drug-induced psychotic break. It is absolutely the worst nightnare that could have ever happened to our family. I have never been in trouble in my life. I have refused ALL drugs. I am myself again and I love my wife and kids so much. I don't even know how to begin...😭😭😭😭

I am so sorry this happened to you. I am surprised that a nurse would prescribe medications though. I haven’t heard of that, and I’m pretty sure that that doesn’t happen where I am, but maybe I’ve run into good places.

Having medication induced problems is the hardest. I have experienced this once with a medication I was on, and the doctor thought it was because my medications were too low, not because the drug caused the problem. My mom told me to get off of it, and although I have not had good experiences with my mom about these things, i listened to her, also because I thought it was the problem too.

At least for me, just finding a different medication was the solution, or at least I am searching for a new medication.

But I feel like a lot of malpractice happened in your case. It seems weird to start two medications simultaneously without knowing what side effects are caused by what medication. And you said the Buspar was for sleep, but yet you were told to take it three times a day. From my understanding, I could be wrong though, medications used for sleep are taken before sleeping, and not throughout the day. I am not too familiar with the drugs you were prescribed, so I don’t really know the normal doses. Normally Buspar is used for anxiety and citalopram is an SSRI for depression and anxiety.

I can’t really say much else, but I’m sorry.

Welcome to PC, and I hope you can find some support on here.

Edit: It seems people on here have been prescribed medications by a nurse. I just have never experienced this before.

I had a genetic test done amd it shows that I am susceptible to Celexa.