[MissCharlotte]

I am sitting here alone in my den, trusty faithful dog at my side. She's the only one who doesn't make me mad.

T has been gone well over a week. I will see him Thursday. The separation has been different this time and I am not as freaked out as I used to be but truth be known I feel the space between us. The longer he is gone the wider the space gets. I fantasize about our reunion (like every year). I know that the session will be difficult. I'll feel awkward and bumbly; he'll try to fill the space with chatter, getting me used to his presence again.

I'm in a weird place right now and I don't know the name of it. I try to protect myself from feeling but I think it's the place where I am faced with myself and know I can't escape it. I'm po'd at H becaue he didn't take care of something he said he would (an old story with us) and it's causing us big probs now and all I can do is hear T's voice asking me what I want to do about it; what do I want? what do I need? how can I take care of myself? blah blah blah blah blah

I really wished I could talk to T tonight.

Maybe I'll just sit on my couch here until fuzz grows on my teeth and someone comes in to evict me.

[Yoda]

[chaotic13]

Miss C,
Hang in there thursday is coming. Cuddle up with the dog and get some unconditional companionship. (((Many hugs)))

MissC, my doggie and I send you hugs! Hang in there, less than 2 days to go!

Originally Posted by MissCharlotte

and all I can do is hear T's voice asking me what I want to do about it; what do I want? what do I need? how can I take care of myself? blah blah blah blah blah

I love how you have internalized T...even the "blah blah blah" part

It's okay to rest there and grow fuzzy teeth for right now. Just try to brush them before you see T tomorrow.

[peaches100]

Hi Miss C,

I know that distant feeling that gets bigger the longer t is away. It feels so unsettling. But Thursday is coming up very soon, and you and t will find a way to reconnect.

Dogs are great for giving comfort. I had a toy poodle for 8 years, and she seemed to always know when i was down. She used to lick away my tears, which felt so sweet, it would make me cry harder. (I know she was mostly after the salt, but i like to think she was comforting me too!)

Repetitive family issues are frustrating, aren't they? When the same kind of thing keeps happening and you can't seem to find a resolution. . .

It's good that you're finding some quiet time to sort through your thoughts.

I hope things are going better for you soon.