[MissCharlotte]

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I felt very very young this afternoon. I worked hard all day cleaning and setting up my new work space so I was tired and dodging politics all the while. Today was the first "missed" session of T's vacation and at one point I found myself drifting off into the planning stage of things I want to tell him and then I remembered he was gone and I felt like stomping my feet and crying! I'm mad that he's gone yet trying to be the understanding adult. I don't want to be the adult right now. I don't want to understand. I don't want to journal, or do any other thing that is intended to appease these feelings. I just want to talk to T, and that's it!

Miss C

It's okay to feel young - maybe even embrace it and do some activity like coloring. Or if you are frustrated or angry, tear up paper and make confetti!

This evening will be my second of three missed sessions - ugh, it's harder than I thought! It especially seems hard because all kinds of issues keep popping up that I think - oh, I'd like to get T's input on this - but she's not there! Luckily, I have a couple of close friends who make a great support system, but still... I miss that constant support and reassurance from T, and just knowing that I have that time with T every week. Two more week, two more weeks!

I'm definitely going to journal tonight, and pay attention to how I'm feeling.

[chaotic13]

This picture says it all and cracks me up. There are soooo many times when I just want to be able to do this. Well Miss C...do you ever tell a student who is ranting.... YOU GO GIRL!... Hmmm. probaby not.

You know on days like this I like to watch the movie Under The Tusan Sun. Ah... a classic for me on a ****** day. Sometimes I just wish I could totally lose it and be like the character Katherine or at the very least have a quick tantrum like Francis does at one point.

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[BlueMoon6]

((((((Miss C))))))

I cant stop looking at this picture!

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by chaotic13

Well Miss C...do you ever tell a student who is ranting.... YOU GO GIRL!... Hmmm. probaby not.

Hahahahaha ROFL - a very interesting thought.... I wonder if I dare try that the next time a student is ranting.... and then say - "ok you got it out of your system, good job. Now go do something!" Tho I think if any of us said "You go girl!" they'd just look at us like we'd lost our minds (which, let's face it - we're all so close anyway rofl).
*Passes around the 'hanging-on-by-a-thread' thread, one more time to everyone to make it a little stronger*
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[~EnlightenMe~]

lolol, Kiya -- the hanging-on-by-a-thread thread. I LOVE it!!!!!!!!!!

(((((((MissC)))))))))),
I'm with you all the way! Of course, I started my tantrum before T left and it didn't go over well. I totally "get" what you are saying! I just want to feel the way I feel, I don't want to try to journal or something because that doesn't help that part of me but more engages my intellect. My intellect is the one that understands T going on vacation. My emotional side doesn't understand any of this - it feels like it's been abandoned no matter what my brain tells it. So what are we supposed to do with this side of us? Hopefully our Ts will figure this out at the T convention.

[chaotic13]

Kiya when I read your post the tone I imagined as I read the "find something to do" part was so funning. I just envision some Old school teacher glaring down at a little girl freaking out. "Ah OK thanks for sharing that!... Now, go find something else to do."...preferably, quietly...at your desk...away from mine....thank you."

[Fuzzybear]

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[BlueMoon6]

Originally Posted by Antimatter

lolol, Kiya -- the hanging-on-by-a-thread thread. I LOVE it!!!!!!!!!!

(((((((MissC)))))))))),
I'm with you all the way! Of course, I started my tantrum before T left and it didn't go over well. I totally "get" what you are saying! I just want to feel the way I feel, I don't want to try to journal or something because that doesn't help that part of me but more engages my intellect. My intellect is the one that understands T going on vacation. My emotional side doesn't understand any of this - it feels like it's been abandoned no matter what my brain tells it. So what are we supposed to do with this side of us? Hopefully our Ts will figure this out at the T convention.

And then they will come back from the convention all rested only to tell us they are going on vacation again....

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by Antimatter

So what are we supposed to do with this side of us? Hopefully our Ts will figure this out at the T convention.

I can see it now... the T's are all sitting around the T Convention Camp Fire, roasting marshmallows to go on their S'mores, swapping stories of All Of Us crying and being drug thru the office, hanging on to T's ankles as they head for the door!!! Cries of the Wild Left Behind Patient shrilly filling every corner.
In the morning of the Convention, the T's will all swap emails and locked Facebook pages to help each other get through the Week of Returning to Abandoned Patients/clients.

I just envision some Old school teacher glaring down at a little girl freaking out. "Ah OK thanks for sharing that!... Now, go find something else to do."...preferably, quietly...at your desk...away from mine....thank you."

Hahahah YEP! And i wear my hair in a bun too! Just need to get myself some spectacles now with flat tops

[chaotic13]

Don't forget the fake gold chain to hang those spectacles from and always my favorite...the wooden yard stick with the little metal edge. I think I was the lttle girl who was kept within yardstick length at all times.
I liked you T camp image. I wonder what their camp activities would be, not the typical. Inkblot reading instead of art. I'll have to think about this.

[Melbadaze]

Miss C, great picture, says it all.

In the morning of the Convention, the T's will all swap emails and locked Facebook pages to help each other get through the Week of Returning to Abandoned Patients/clients.

Seriously - I would not want to be a T coming back to all those abandoned clients, what a hard week that will be for our T's! But it's the price they pay for leaving us, right? I'm glad I'm seeing my T the first day she's back, her week is gonna be rough!

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by dreamseeker9

all those abandoned clients; what a hard week that will be for our T's! But it's the price they pay for leaving us, right?

that's RIGHT!!!! i see mine in ... oh tomorrow night! =)

[~EnlightenMe~]

In the morning of the Convention, the T's will all swap emails and locked Facebook pages to help each other get through the Week of Returning to Abandoned Patients/clients.

Kiya -- lololol!!! We're the victims of T Vacations.

NOW - they're the victims of T Vacations.

Interesting. . .

[Kiya]

OUCH!!!!! *cries* just saw T... still recovering from my ***-kicking @_@ Waaaaaaaaaah not the session i wanted from coming back after not seeing her for 2 weeks. *sniff*
Cried thru the WHOLE thing, all the way home, and at home, thru writing her my usual post-session email, and still.... it stings... it hurts *cries*
This is why i don't see her in the daytime - waaaaaaaay too alert and firey and out to change the kiya It was all about my being in this abusive house and how she is going to push me out, hell or high water and she knows this is painful and it is because she cares so much and wants me to have a better life and and and.... i didn't hear much of what she said - somehow the sound of my tears were louder.
*Feels more abandoned now than when she was out of town*. I KNOW that isn't true. I know it. But it FEELS that way. Sometimes i guess absence can be real even when the person is right there, and even when their actions are "good for you".

[MissCharlotte]

awwww ((Kiya))

Here with you so you aren't alone! This sounds like the disconnected reunion we all speak of when T returns. It's so bloody hard to get back into the relationship. Don't worry, T is back, and you will feel better soon.

[Kiya]

=( (((((((((miss!))))))))))))))
not sure which is really worse - t being gone, or first t session back.
Tho - honestly, from the way she talked tonight, things are gonna get a lot harder from now on.

[Melbadaze]

Kiya, I find its when T is back that its safe enought to feel all the emotions I stuffed inside whilst she was away..yes it takes time to get back the ryhmn..

[sittingatwatersedge]

Quote: In the morning of the Convention, the T's will all swap emails and locked Facebook pages to help each other get through the Week of Returning to Abandoned Patients/clients.

Couldn't help noticing that
Week of Returning to Abandoned Patients/clients = WRAP

Maybe it should be, to help each other get through the Coping with Returning to Abandoned Patients/clients....