[BlueMoon6]

I feel embarrassed to ask for hugs, but I could use as many as I can get. I am embarrassed to say why. Im having a low moment.

Thanks-

[Indie'sOK]

(((((bluemoon))))) I'm sorry you're feeling low, hope you feel better soon
Don't feel embarrassed...we all need support every now and then

[complic8d]

((((((((((BlueMoon)))))))))

I'm so proud of you for asking for what you need!

[rainbow8]

(((((BlueMoom))))),

I hope you're feeling better.

[fallenangel337]

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[googley]

((((((BlueMoon)))))
There is no reason for you to need to feel bad about needing to ask for help. We all need it sometimes.

[jexa]

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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6

I feel embarrassed to ask for hugs, but I could use as many as I can get. I am embarrassed to say why. Im having a low moment.

Thanks-

Oh BlueMoon never ever ever don't feel bad for wanting a hug - there are sssssssooooooo many in here to give...


P.S. I have an on going post called: COME AND GET YOUR NEVER ENDING HUGS>>>>>>>>>>>. visit anytime take as many hugs as you need, leave a few of you have extras and even take some for just in case

[turquoisesea]

((((((((Bluemoon))))))))
dont be embarrassed - nothing wrong with asking for a hug

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hope you are feeling better soon sweet one!!

[darkrunner]

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I hope you feel better soon!

Good for you for asking for what you need!

Lots and lots and lots of to you!

And some and too

[mixedup_emotions]

Wow, that's awesome that you were able to bring yourself to ask!! That's a GREAT accomplishment, especially when you're feeling so low. GO YOU!!!!

And here's your hugs.....BIG and STRONG ones from me...

Awww, Blue - hope you are better today!

Originally Posted by BlueMoon6

I feel embarrassed to ask for hugs, but I could use as many as I can get. I am embarrassed to say why. Im having a low moment.

Thanks-

Need a Hug - Anytime - Fresh Hugs daily : http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=112875&goto=newpost

[Tapestry]

Blue, sending lots and lots of hugs to you!

[onlymedid]

[BlueMoon6]

OMG! Wow. I just cant believe all of the beautiful hugs you all gave me. It makes me feel so good and so much better. I read through each hug slowly and it is making me cry. I feel like you DO care about me. You are all so incredibly special to me. I cant describe my feelings in words. Special and precious arent good enough words for how I feel about the friends I have made here.

I dont know why I get into these moments of believing no one likes me, I should go away and disappear because I am not wanted around here or anywhere. Then, I go on to tell myself how immature I am being. And I dont dare tell anyone. I want to go to bed, pull the covers over my head and feel alone. It can be very difficult to get out of that kind of mood. And so difficult for me in those moments to ask for some extra care and a hug. At my core I feel unworthy and I dont deserve to ask for hugs and love. That other people are the really deserving ones, they need love so much more than me. But.....I did it. I needed a hug, and even if I was embarrassed, I asked and you hugged me. If I didnt ask, I wouldnt have known. Phew. This was a lesson for me.

I feel so much better. So much. Wow. Thank you

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by BlueMoon6

OMG! Wow. I just cant believe all of the beautiful hugs you all gave me. It makes me feel so good and so much better. I read through each hug slowly and it is making me cry. I feel like you DO care about me. You are all so incredibly special to me. I cant describe my feelings in words. Special and precious arent good enough words for how I feel about the friends I have made here.

I dont know why I get into these moments of believing no one likes me, I should go away and disappear because I am not wanted around here or anywhere. Then, I go on to tell myself how immature I am being. And I dont dare tell anyone. I want to go to bed, pull the covers over my head and feel alone. It can be very difficult to get out of that kind of mood. And so difficult for me in those moments to ask for some extra care and a hug. At my core I feel unworthy and I dont deserve to ask for hugs and love. That other people are the really deserving ones, they need love so much more than me. But.....I did it. I needed a hug, and even if I was embarrassed, I asked and you hugged me. If I didnt ask, I wouldnt have known. Phew. This was a lesson for me.

I feel so much better. So much. Wow. Thank you

Wow....I soooooo relate to how you are feeling right now. Are you sure we're not twins? It's an awful feeling...and indeed hard to get out of....UGH.....I am waiting for the time to pass so I can get my daughter to bed so I can close my eyes and feel relief from the awful feelings....

I admire your ability to ask for what you needed - and were rewarded so wonderfully by your PC friends.

((( HUGS )))

[chaotic13]

Originally Posted by BlueMoon6

I dont know why I get into these moments of believing no one likes me, I should go away and disappear because I am not wanted around here or anywhere. Then, I go on to tell myself how immature I am being.

Blue I've kind of been feeling a bunch of immature things lately too. I finally presented some of this to my T and she suggested that it was my inner child feeling safe enough to heal. Appearently my feeling like a pre-schooler is an indication that I am healing....IDK I haven't quiet bought into this yet but my T hasn't lied to me yet.

((((((()))))))))) many hugs from a fellow immature feeling person.

[BlueMoon6]

Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions

Wow....I soooooo relate to how you are feeling right now. Are you sure we're not twins? It's an awful feeling...and indeed hard to get out of....UGH.....I am waiting for the time to pass so I can get my daughter to bed so I can close my eyes and feel relief from the awful feelings....

I admire your ability to ask for what you needed - and were rewarded so wonderfully by your PC friends.

((( HUGS )))

I hope your daughter is sleeping now and you can do something nice for yourself and maybe even get some rest.

I feel so very rewarded by my PC friends.

I LOVED the pictures and the smilies....

Onlymedid- those are such cute smilies....and Starlite- I loved the hugging creatures! I really feel cared about. I want to jump into the creature hug

And even still, it can be so hard to get out of. I can be in a better mood and then one off thing is said to me by my husband and I feel unlovable and unworthy. Its a reflex for me. Its like a lightening fast reaction. I sink down before I even know what is happening. H said something that sounded kind of nasty to me this evening. He could have worded what he said differently, but he didnt. And I interpret that to mean that he doesnt love me or care about me at all. I am unworthy of loving. I can tell myself its not true and I can even tell him I thought his tone was nasty, but inside it touches childhood hurt. We had this really stupid argument over it, and then I can tell my h is done and is fine to me, but Im still feeling icky. Why does he have to act like that? OK- he is busy, having an off moment himself. But I hold onto it and feel low. Still.

You know what I would like, to be able to feel safe enough and trust enough to ask my husband for what I need from him. I can and do to a small extent, but the really deep stuff, I find difficult. Its not that I never have with him, but I dont feel safe consistently enough. I often feel alone. He'd feel badly if he knew that. I dont know if he would use it against me or take advantage of me if I asked him, or just be loving and be there for me. That certainly was the inconsistency I grew up with. Maybe it was OK, or maybe Id get slammed. I always felt like I had to walk on eggshells and never knew what to expect.

Sigh....Im going on and on and on......

[BlueMoon6]

Originally Posted by chaotic13

Blue I've kind of been feeling a bunch of immature things lately too. I finally presented some of this to my T and she suggested that it was my inner child feeling safe enough to heal.

Really? My jaw dropped......that the immaturity is your inner child feeling safe enough to heal? I am trying to wrap my mind around that........maybe in a way, my inner pre-schooler is feeling safe enough to say how she feels. ???? Maybe. I suppose, if she wasnt feeling safe, she wouldnt be saying it. I would have thought it is my adult pushing me to say what I am feeling. But it DOES very much feel like young emotions. Im feeling like a hurt child who is afraid to feel/say she is hurt.

Appearently my feeling like a pre-schooler is an indication that I am healing....IDK I haven't quiet bought into this yet but my T hasn't lied to me yet.

Hmmmmm.....I might be able to take her word for it, too.

((((((()))))))))) many hugs from a fellow immature feeling person.

Thanks Chaotic, big immature hugs to you, too

[Simcha]

Originally Posted by BlueMoon6

Really? My jaw dropped......that the immaturity is your inner child feeling safe enough to heal? I am trying to wrap my mind around that........maybe in a way, my inner pre-schooler is feeling safe enough to say how she feels. ???? Maybe. I suppose, if she wasnt feeling safe, she wouldnt be saying it. I would have thought it is my adult pushing me to say what I am feeling. But it DOES very much feel like young emotions. Im feeling like a hurt child who is afraid to feel/say she is hurt.


Hmmmmm.....I might be able to take her word for it, too.


Thanks Chaotic, big immature hugs to you, too

My inner preschooler self mostly misbehaved. I still like him a lot.

Originally Posted by BlueMoon6

Sigh....Im going on and on and on......

silly bluemoon, that is what a message board is for. my inner preschooler thinks maturity is overrated and i think i agree.

[Fuzzybear]

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