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Old Oct 24, 2009, 06:11 PM
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In the course of our recent split, he told me that the reason he would not go to marriage counseling back then was because he didn't want to acknowledge that there was anything wrong in our relationship because he felt if we talked about it, it would become "real" and we would then indeed have the problems I recognized. He just wanted to not talk about what might be wrong, because then we would have no problems. Does that make sense? It was just profound denial. He and I are both very, very avoidant types, and those are often the (unhappy) marriages that last longest.
It makes perfect sense. I know this is all over and done with. And that is a very, very good thing. You delt with this and it is over. But I cant help wondering if he noticed that the marriage ended, and, well, his denial and refusal to get counseling did nothing to keep the family together. That it couldnt have hurt anything to go. When I first suggested to my h that we go together to dt, I think my h said, "why?" I probably said something about "getting more organized in the house." It can get chaotic here when I have to be in 100 places at once. He knows that. He doesnt want me stressed and yelling. So, I think that was how we first went. I probably made some kind of joke about going so he would finally understand he has to do what I want him to do- I tell him Im trying to turn him into the "perfect" husband (because I already am THE perfect wife).....often the way to approach my h is with a little humor [/quote]

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Old Oct 24, 2009, 09:56 PM
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Dt suggested to me that I ask them for hugs when I am down, I have sort of been uncomfortable with that. They would always give me a hug, but when I am obviously down? Or not to seem down, seem up, and ask for a hug? Doesnt sit right with me.
When I was a child, I assumed that ALL of my mom's moods were caused by me (she pretty much made me believe that, actually). So, if she was mad, it was my fault, if she was sad, it was my fault. I was always scrambling to make everything okay, and never succeeding. It felt awful.

My kids and I are very close - since I homeschool, we spend a LOT of time together - and I want them to know that we ALL have lots of feelings - happy, excited, anxious, sad, whatever - and that it is OKAY. I was raised having to act happy all the time, no matter what...I don't want to do that to my kids. And I don't want them to EVER feel responsible for my moods.

So, if I am sad, I know that they know something is "off". I don't want them to have to guess, and wonder, and worry that it has something to do with them. So I'll say something like "I feel kind of sad right now, but it doesn't have ANYTHING to do with you guys. It's just some grown up stuff". That's all they need to know. I'm sad, and it's not caused by them. And sometimes, I will ask them for a hug, and they will give it to me, and I think we ALL feel better - I feel better because I got a hug and they are sweet boys and I think they like being able to do a little something to help.

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Old Oct 24, 2009, 10:31 PM
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"I feel kind of sad right now, but it doesn't have ANYTHING to do with you guys. It's just some grown up stuff". That's all they need to know. I'm sad, and it's not caused by them. And sometimes, I will ask them for a hug, and they will give it to me, and I think we ALL feel better - I feel better because I got a hug and they are sweet boys and I think they like being able to do a little something to help.
Tree- this was very helpful to me. You are such an amazing mom. Wow! I so dont want my kids to feel that they are responsible for my feelings, but they should know that I also have feelings. I never want to appear artificial to them, or for them to suspect I am not being "real" or lying. I try to be as open and honest as I can. They see my moods, good and bad ones, and Im sure there are times I was angry and they thought they were responsible and I had to clear that up. Sigh.

I like that you do get ask for a hug after making it cleat that it is "grown up stuff" that you may be upset/sad about. I like that. I will use that. It is very truthful. And would make my kids feel better. The times I have I was very touched by the way they seemed to enjoy being able to help me in that way. They smile and hug me real tight and ask me if I feel better now.....even my teenagers. They can really amaze me, too.
After posting about this, I really DO feel so much better about going to my kids for hugs and a little bit of comfort without burdening their minds that anything is their fault or disclosing too much.

Im sorry, Sunny, I didnt mean to hijack your thread! Your session with your t brought up so much for me that I could talk and post about various aspects of it forever.....
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Old Oct 25, 2009, 12:44 PM
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Wow, let me know how it goes. I'm not trying to make light of this, but something inside me thinks, "hmmm, I wonder if ftt going to think my therapy is weird?"
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Its interesting that you said that, personally, I dont think there is anything at all there that is weird. It is a really lovely story about empathy and the depth of your relationship. If you dont want me to read it there, I wont I love the post, I really do, it so touched me and brought up so much. I also have difficulty seeing that kind of intimacy as a possibility for me, because of my fears or.... because of ??? Not sure. Thats what I want to bring up. If you dont want me to, I dont have to...I can sort of paraphrase in my own words
No, it's fine to share with your T. Go ahead! I will be interested to hear how that goes...
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