[rainbow8]

Not sure why I'm starting a new thread about this. Maybe cause I'm anxious and tired. The replies in my other thread got me thinking that my T is on my side. She's not my enemy. She's not trying to make me feel miserable; she's trying to help me! How can she help me if I don't go see her? She has to make a living. It's my issue that the money bothers me so much, and that I wish she would help me on the phone rather than charge me for a session.

Because of the money issues, there's so much at stake for me in a session. I will have to tell her that first thing. I would like it to be so easy to just come in and start talking about my feelings about my Dad, but I can't get rid of the image of her with her grandchildren. It seems worth a little time in therapy. I'm just frustrated about therapy. I wish it cost less. Same story with me. I am addicted to therapy. Thinking about it makes me feel all mixed up, like my relationship with her will get in the way. Maybe I will post in that new subforum on transference. Is anyone going to post there?

[ECHOES]

I'm glad to hear that you're going to schedule a session. It sounds like you have a lot of good things to talk about with her.

I'm not sure I would post in the new transference subforum. Not sure about the blogs being referred to and how they relate to the creation or need for a subforum....
To me, most of what is posted about here is related to transference.

Good for you, Rainbow. I'm glad you're letting yourself get that support.

rainbow

I hope it's a healing session for you!

[jexa]

(((((rainbow))))) I am so glad you will get to see your T. I think talking about seeing her with her grandkids is a good topic for T, even with all the other stuff that's going on.

I don't plan to post to the transference section. I agree with echoes, a lot of what is talked about in this forum has to do with transference anyway. Kind of hard to separate therapy from transference.

[sunrise]

Rainbow, I'm glad you made up your mind. You deserve the support right now during this difficult time. I hope you get a chance to talk about all the topics you need to.

Originally Posted by jexa

Kind of hard to separate therapy from transference.

I felt kind of the same way. I hope they don't split up the psychotherapy forum into a bunch of subforums to talk about separate issues, like EMDR, CBT, transference, boundary crossings, the therapeutic frame, etc. So much of all of this is intertwined.

[BlueMoon6]

I am glad you are going to make the appt. Very glad. I think it is the right time for some extra support

When I saw that I was wondering, too. I think it is all related and how can we support each other with posts here and there on various aspects of therapy? It doesnt seem necessary to separate transference from the rest of psychotherapy. The transference posts here bring up so many other helpful things.

[rainbow8]

Thanks for the encouragement. Now that I decided to make the appointment, I'm trying to figure out when. I've get to get my father's apartment cleared out on my only free day. My H and I worked all day today, but it's a bigger job than we expected!

[rainbow8]

I just left my T a message that I want to see her this week. My husband will be angry, but oh, well. I'll have to deal with him.

[rainbow8]

She called back already! I'm relieved, but also scared because I want to get my "money's worth." Any suggestions how to do that? My appointment, unless anything unforeseen happens, is Tuesday morning.

[rainbow8]

I keep posting in my own thread. I'm scared about my session. I've never talked about such a sad topic with my T before. As much as I fantasize about crying with her, I am afraid to. But I don't want to turn off my feelings. I wish tomorrow were here already!!

((((((((((((((rainbow)))))))))))))))) I hope you have a good session

[sunrise]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

I'm scared about my session. I've never talked about such a sad topic with my T before. As much as I fantasize about crying with her, I am afraid to. But I don't want to turn off my feelings.

rainbow, I had a session last week with my T about a very sad topic (parent end of life issues). It was the second time we have had a session on this. I remember after the first time we worked on this, a few months ago, I told T that I hadn't known I was going to talk about this. He responded that he thought I really needed to let this out with him (there were a lot of tears, a lot of stress released). This last session, same thing happened. This topic just came up and took our full time. It is really hard to cope with this right now, and talking (and crying) in therapy has helped. Rainbow, I know that right now you have a father who is not well (among other issues), and it must indeed be very sad. I hope you can share your sadness with your T.

[BlueMoon6]

I am so glad your appt is coming up so soon. I think it will go well and you will get to alot of things. Maybe posting what you have been here will help you to go in the direction you want to and get to feelings.

I am so looking forward to hearing from you after the session!

[peaches100]

Hi Rainbow,

I'm glad you booked an appointment with t. I'll be eager to hear how it went.