cant cry, wont cry

I am trying to connect to my emotions, but am so scared because when i do, i will cry and wont be able to stop. The worst thing is also im in group therapy not one to one as i wanted to have. I have closed up again and i now its no good, but i am soooooo scared of just letting go and not being able to stop! also what others will think in the group, plus i don't want all those eyes watching me cry.

I sooooo know what you're going through. It is hard to open up and be vulnerable in a group setting. I too become concerned with what others will think or letting that vulnerability be exposed. And when my guard is down - I am fearful of the responses I will get, or not get. For me, it has to be a completely safe environment...and so far, it isn't safe enough for me.

Is there any way you can get individual therapy to work out some of the tougher issues?

In the meantime, have you shared the feelings of fear of being vulnerable with your group? That may stir up some responses that might allow you to feel more comfortable.

I have shared my fear with the group, but i still feel uncomfortable, My therapist says that i should Finnish this group therapy, it will last till july next year, Then see how far i have come and look at what else i need. I have waited years for any therapy and they stuck me right in at the deep end, everyone in the group have had other therapy and one to ones.

Perhaps you've shared this before, but is there a reason why you haven't been able to do individual sessions? Can you explore other options sooner?

This is my first therapy offered to me, I wanted one to one. But this is what i got. I have been awaiting therapy for 10 years!! But doctors say im coping well and give me drug to take. I had a breakdown and then they saw i needed help.