[Melbadaze]

a while back when talking about the effect of breaks on me, t said that she needs to be pro-active and reach out to me during breaks.

TYpical thinking on my behalf now is, i wonDer if she will remember saying that this break, i wonder if she'll send an email to Me during this break? I wonder.

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Mel - ((((( safe hugs ))))

[MissCharlotte]

((Melba))

I would be wondering the same thing methinks. But I think that if she forgets, you must remind her....reach out and contact her and remind her of her promise?

Many blessings this Christmas!

[MINIME]

Hey I am thinking about you. ((HUGS))

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((Melba)))
I hope your T honors her words and makes an effort to stay in contact with you

My T went on this whole spill about calling her if i needed to before our break. I was very triggered by a few things that occurred yesterday and sent a message to T asking if I might phone her to avoid a complete meltdown. She responded with "It's only been a few days". This was very upsetting for me and still is... Anyway, i don't want to hijack your theread so here's hoping T will stay in touch

[Melbadaze]

It was really strange today, I wondered if she'd email today, and though part of me was almost excited about this idea, part of me felt like a child with their arms folded tight wanting to be allowed some independence. I felt strangely connected to perhaps what I was imagining T's possible deliama over this same issue, if she did email today would that be too intrusive and possible to soon in the break?

I wondered if I was hoping to feel really important in T's life for her to contact me today, xmas day and if thats what was behind my wanting it, then I didnt want it.

I feel myself falling into my own trap here, putting all sorts of meanings to actions I have no real understanding off.

Perhaps this is good, this is what therapys all about, learning to think things through and to not jump to conclusion and/or act them out when nothing has been checked first.

Yes if T doesnt connect with me at during this break then I think I would like to bring this up and say, what happened to your pro-active stance? it will be difficult to do that adultly because I feel the hurt child within me already wanting to create a scene and make T pay if she doesnt, and I hate that I feel that way, but can do it differently and talk about it when I return.

watch this space LOL