I told T tonight that I've been reading a lot of books about therapy and that I post to a message board about therapy - T didn't ask which one, thank goodness. I also told T that I feel like I've immersed myself a bit too much in making therapy my life. I don't want to cut back from 2 sessions a week, and I still want to journal - I just feel that I've been relying a bit too much on PC, visiting multiple times a day. And also, I need to work back into my life things that I love that I haven't made time for - seeing theater, being active. So if you don't see me around as much, you know why - I'm just feeling the need for a little brain break from therapy 24/7.

I had a great session with T - I told her about a lot of present concerns I have that we've never discussed - money, drinking, more on my weight, and the revelation about PC. And of course, we talked about the holidays and my time with my family, that starts tomorrow. I'm really glad I had this last session with T to help anchor me before I go into the dysfunction. And I'm also very glad that T is working next week, so I'll only miss one session with her!

Happy Holidays to all! I won't have online access for the next several days, so it seems like a good time to take a break. Take care of yourselves over the holidays!

[BlueMoon6]

It sounds like a really good session, and something really necessary before going into the lion's den. It could be that you are at a point where you have grown some and are ready to test the waters with your new growth.....not that the growing ceases, but that you have discovered some really powerful things and you are ready to move up a notch.

Ive mentioned PC to ftt, she said it is a safe way for me to talk about the things that are too difficult to say in RL. Which is true. Thank you for being safe for me I understand the need to get back some of your going out and less introspective life, and when you begin to do more things, you may find that you are doing them as a different Dream, you know?

Have a wonderful holiday, Dream, and be safe and grounded.........

[ECHOES]

Happy Holidays, dreamseeker

I'm glad you had a great session and will see T again soon.
That sounds great to want to be getting back into the joy of life again!!

[chaotic13]

I went through a phase where I was worried that I was spending too much time and energy thinking about therapy. I was visiting PC a lot. When I think about it now I probably was spending too much time here and thinking about my problems. But I've noticed that I am slowly letting go. I think I needed to spend that time, I was working through my stuff and needed to spend time. The topic of PC has never come up in my therapy. Your discussion with your T sounds it was a really good. Hope you are able to carry it through the holidays.

Happy Holidays, dreamseeker...I'm glad you have that good session with T to carry with you into the holiday season

[mixedup_emotions]

Sounds like you had a great session!

I have similar feelings about being too emersed in "therapy"....but not necessarily with PC. It's moreso that I spend wayyyy too much time thinking about group T, going on the group blog, individual T, reflecting on individual sessions, etc. etc. etc.

That's why, at times, I feel the need for a "therapy break"...but I haven't really followed through on one (except for the 3 weeks that my T was away around Thanksgiving - but I still had group T each week).

Like today, for example, I have NO interest in going to group T tonight....And I also feel like canceling my individual T that's scheduled for Thursday....But....I probably won't....

Happy Holidays!!!