Does she not even care?

I don't think that it is a matter of her not caring about you or your well being. But she can't be there beside you 24 hours a day. But telling her about what happened is a good start to not trying it again.

There is a thing called 'therapeutic neutrality', which is a part of how many therapists work, especally those with psychodynamic training. Here is something I read just the other day:

"Therapeutic neutrality is defined as the therapist's ability to stay apart from actively intervening in a patient's life. ... Therapeutic neutrality allows exploration, questioning, confrontation and interpretation. ... There is a critical difference between concern for the patient's impaired real self and caring for or about a patient ... Caring for or about a patient is the proper atttitude of a friend, lover, spouse, parent, spritiual advisor and many others. However it is not the job of the psychotherapist. ... Therapeutic neutrality is not a dispassionate position. Those therapists who believe in its importance do so passionately. ... The therapeutic stance is one of positive expectations about the individual's responsibility to the self and to others."

It sounds to me like your T is doing her job the way she is trained to do it. She knows that you are capable of deciding for yourself whether to live or not, and she is leaving the decision in your hands, where it belongs. She is not going to rescue you from yourself.

This is not a very touchy feely way of doing therapy, but it is grounded in a belief that this way of doing things works and is best for the patient. When I first read the quote above, I found it hard to deal with, but the more I think about it the more sense it makes to me. I need my therapist to be objective while remaining on my side. But I need to be the one who decides my own fate.

I encourage you to focus on reminding yourself of the parts of your post that I quoted in bold type. She is concerned and she sees you positively. That may have to be enough with this therapist...

BUT...as others have done, I also encourage you to talk with your therapist about how you were/are affected by her way of dealing with you. Since a lot of what therapy is about is learning new ways to be in relationship, talking about what is happening in the relationship with our therapist is very important work. But scary, I know.

Thank you all for your replies to this.

What you are all saying makes more and more sense the more I read it. I think I was shocked more than anything at her reaction. I had never really brought an attempted suicide to her attention before, so I guess I didn't know what to expect.

Regardless, I will try and discuss things with her. It's only fair that I get her perspective as well.

Again, thank you all.