[moonrise]

Session w/ t today was hard. Flicking awful hard. Shared some hard stuff, but I don't feel better. I feel worse, like I need to punish myself for talking. I feel judged by t, not her fault. Darn transference. But it hurts. I wonder why I shared at all. She keeps wanting me to think, but all I can do is feel.

[skeksi]

Oh, those sessions can be such a difficult burden. Sharing can, temporarily, kick up so many old fears that it feels like it must be a mistake. But it's not.

It was good you were able to share with T. Though you feel you need to be punished, you do not deserve that. You deserve every ounce of caring your T showed you, and heaps more.

Take care of yourself tonight, extra-special care, even if it doesn't feel like you deserve it.

[jexa]

(((moon))) No words of wisdom, just sitting with you. We're all in this together. The point is, we're on the path. Something is driving us all to face ourselves in therapy. That in and of itself is proof of our strength.. I'm sorry it's so hard right now.

[Rapunzel]

It often gets harder before it gets easier, but it will get better. Tell T how you felt about sharing your stuff with her. You'll get through this.